Going Home

Home sweet home.

One more day to home.
How do you feel when you about to go home?
Boring (voice from worm game), Happy, huh?, Let's go!, dont want la..

I wanna go home.
I wanna go home.

You go back to KL with me becoz? Any particular reason?
Dont be lame.
Becoz I love you, becoz I havent been going to KL quite awhl, I need a break, boh bian lor, being forced,...
All the above not in.

You havent been going back to KL with me for awhile.
And there are few things I need to be prepared.

Your mom.
Your work.
Your timing.

I am not condemning you. I am excited but worried.
I know I have to be really careful when I say thing.
This is sensitive issue.

Going home hearing things sounded like "you la!"  not easy to swallow
Ask you to tag along, risky move.
Your working hour, no matter how much I wish you could come with me I worry too rush for you.
Small small things are killing me.

I am under depression illness. or tramatized with things.
I don't know what where went wrong.
Women feel it before their period. Pregnant women feel it after their pregnancy.
I feel it anytime of the day especially after period.

Arhh! I am going crazy soon.
I have never felt this way before. I have this sydrome few months ago.
Guess I am getting my pre-menopause.
I never tell anyone.

I am controlling my temper now.
I am holding it back.
I calm myself down with my own language. !@#$%^&

My heart pain.
On and off.
Dont ask me why coz I think there are too many things to say.

Tramatize, phobia, fear, anger, disappointment etc.
and after all, I refuse to do anything productive today. tomorrow. till friday nite, sat and sunday.

*heartovely* 

Happy dad's day!

Today is the day!

Today is all men (with kid/s) day!

Today is all men (with dick/s) day!

Today is all men (with ball/s) day!

< Smooches & Huggies!! >

We love you dearest dad!
There's surprise behind your back. *hint hint*

Long time we didn't play hide & seek surprises game. Today is the day!!

and

Let's play!!!

We hide annnnnnnnd
YOU
seek!!!

Muaks! U have few hours till 11:59pm.

Let's start!!!

Time ... Tik tok tik tok tik tok...

~lovelyandkids~



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On the way

Hot morning with a red broken lips.

Been having nightmares non stop & distracted my beauty sleep.

"now u can dress up go for your brkfast date. You have 2hrs or more. Brkfast at the garden or fastfood up to both of u. Your journey will take longer than mine. If u thk not enuf time coz u wan to take some photos, do it. No rush!"

"you say before u confirm if she has potential, u will run a test. Think both of u didn't work out. Kiss & snap?"

Anyway, those are not my concern. My concern is I have been having nightmares.

We staying in hostel. Again, u stop calling me or text me. Treating me like a doll. Night time I went to your room to look for u. I didn't knock coz I didn't plan to.

Open up the door saw u with a girl. She on the bed covered with blanket while u sitting on the floor doing work on your laptop. From far both of u like kissing. Can hear both laughing.

I went over & ask u wats wrong. So now u have new girl so u stop calling? But u didn't look at me or answer me at all.

The girl still lying on the bed & she look much smaller compares to your past EXes. Oh! U have changed your appetite.

I was super angry & pissed. I kicked & slapped u.but I knw I struggled in my sleep. Not much of energy to be rough.

Then I went to a drawer opposite your bed & took somethg. Then I walked out from the room.

I made up my mind.

One fine day u came to look for me. Trying to be nice & talk to me. Say wanted to explain to me why u were with the girl.

I made up my mind.

U say she asked u to pretend her new bf to make his bf angry so that he will leave her alone. & she wanted u to be her prom nite partner too. Blah blah blah...

I made up my mind.

I walked away with one sentence. "think before u do, whatever u do has nothing got to do with me coz those are old sch ideas."

Your stupid smile gone & I left.

Then I saw sofi. I asked him if I can use his toilet to bathe.
(amazingly I still remember I need to bathe. -__-|||| )

But ended up I got chase away. He scolded me with some stupid word. I can't remember what but I hate him for not letting bathe.

(loud my head off)

While I was walking & thinking where I can bathe, I saw Bobby. He about to lock his door & go out.

I beg him for letting me to use his toilet. I need to bathe. I shouted very loud from opposite side. Surprisingly I don't knw what is 'malu'.

While waiting for him to reply if I can use his toilet, I woke up.

-lovelyisfine-


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Love begins with a smile :)