Weakend

Today is Sad-turday.

A day with weird mood and irritation.
Morning had a bowl of noodle with CP shrimp wonton. FYI - the wonton that i bought and supposed to bring home but my bag fulled. So they ate without asking. MF!

Anyway, then found out a few dead bodies floating around. And I look closer - ANTS, big one! Gosh!
Then nvm... told my cousin who was scoping the noodle, told him to look carefully and told him abt the ants.
Then he scolded my aunt got no eye to see. Ello!!!! Bastard! Your mom's eyes are not good and how dare you to scold her like this. As if she purposely cook the noodle with ants. I hope he get stomach cramp aft eating the noodle.

Then, i continued my noodle and wish i could just finish fast and go in to my room and do my things. Coz my aunty keep talking. Abt RWS, about the fee that MBS charged $100 non refundable. PR and S'porean then blah blah blah.... Then talk abt the aunt who is going to come to SG with the family and I have to sleep in the living hall on the floor. Again, I pay rent and do i have a choice to choose? 

Then, half way eating, I saw an approx. 4-5mm long worm on my wonton. Oh God! help me!! I took a second to breath in and told my aunt say got worm. Then she passed me a tissue paper and ask me to throw it there. Then she ask me not to eat the noodle but the wonton. FML. the worm was on my wonton and you cook everything together. You think the worm has no brain juice and the body has no bacteria? I eat the wonton meaning I am indirectly sucking the worm. Oh god! really speechless!

I finished everything and ended I had stomach ache.

Then I went out with Sheila. Work and catch up! nothing much. I waited for her an hour at somerset. I seriously hate this attitude. I dont mind you tell me you will be late or something stuck need about how long to reach. Then atleast i can find something to do or go out later. But no. wonder what is wrong and this is a manner issue. oh well, i think there are things cannot be changed. it is in the blood. She always late.

*Talking abt this, I was angry a few times when I was waited for your at Singpost. You were always not on time. But I was okay when I have NDS or something to do. I angry few times coz my backache or I have nothing to do. Think about it, you very poor thing. And think further, I want to scold you coz of the bian tai man. and think twice, I want to laugh. It was a fun memory afterall. *cheers* Treasure the old childhood memories coz we wont be repeating them anymore.


Whole day I hear her complain about her work. and she shop and buy and shop and buy and talk and complain. nothing much until we sat down had lunch you called.

I am really sorry that I missed your call. Well, too late to change anything. It was supposed to be a packing day for you. I waited for your call and keep checking my phone ard 4+ but you didnt call or sms. So thought you were stl asleep. Then I didnt want to disturb you so didnt sms u and check on you if you are alrite. Then you called.

Anyway, i am disappointed. But well, over. done... i cant do anything. which i think good for you coz you managed to go bek office and clear something.and monday you wont be rushing or stay late again.

Hope you happy. I dont know what and where went wrong. I just wish everything stay the same (for what we like and used to share laughter) and improve to be better. Maybe we are just handling it differently now. like you say, we should play by ears. Nothing commit or rather flexible.

Alrite... Time to have private session with the 2 new kids. Havent been petting them today. poor little babies... Owww....

^The loved one of Smokey and Toby^

PK month

Looooooooooong weekend.


I want to watch movie.. Lots of movies.
DEARJOHN, Valentine, CutCop, Alice in the wonderland....etc..lotsa lotsa of movie.


and


Sleeeeeeeeeep and rest...


Then


research, questionnaire, paper work, reading and preparation.


Thereafter will look for part time job.


Guess by then will be too long.... Remember i only left a penny in my bank. *dull*


Kambateh!!! Jia You!!!! and be happy! :) 


Happy weekend! 


^^Lovely^^

Option and choice

Struggling.

I wish I was a tai-tai. Married a rich man and have a happy family.
Or
I born in a rich family. 26 year old be CEO of the company.

Either of this would make my life easier. Atleast I know what is luxury all about. And I dont need to worry so much about tomoro how to pay rent and phone bill.

Life sucks when you keep worrying. There's no end until the day you got to say bye to the world. which is when no one knows. Anytime from this second.

Should I continue to dream big to have the pancake cafe? 
Or should I continue to plan to go bek to Aussie?

I notice something. I will start to think alot when during my jobless moment. sigh..

We discussed this before. We supposed to migrate to Aussie later. But then dont know how we ended up something else and if im not wrong, I think you dont want to go there anymore.

Anyway, my mom did say If I want to go, then go. But I feel old and tired. Walking alone, start a new life alone, crying alone and no one understand how I feel being alone out there. Very depressing!

When I first came to SG, I have no friend. My colleagues are my friends but we dont hang out. So after work i will go home straight. The next day wake up then go work again. Everyday the same until I finally have some friends whom I can talk to.

Then money. First few months suffer alot and try to clear debts. and once jobless, I will need 2-3 months to recover. Depends on how much I can save. Im super tired and I kinda a hate to repeat it again.

Oh well, I really wish to settle down somewhere where I think finally I can call it Home. Tired of floating around like a nobody/s child. Sad.

Time to go to bed. Better not to think so much.

Good nite morning!

*Lovely*

Sensitive words

Today's new words.
Used to and Past

Lesson will take approx. 15mins. Short intensive course. Payment please made to: The square head miss.
1st lesson.
The definition of Used To:
in the habit; adjective accustomed to, familiar with, in the habit of, given to, at home in, attuned to, tolerant of, wont to, inured to, hardened to, habituated to.

The definition of Past:
1. No longer current; gone by; over.
2. Having existed or occurred in an earlier time; bygone.
3. The time before the present.

Why do I chose this 2 words? Becoz my instinct speaks!
I went out today for facial (my stupid clogged skin need serious treatment, FML), then interview then get gift for Fiona's birthday.
On the way to all these places with MRT. They showing DEARJOHN, Alice in the wonderland and CutCops (something like this.by bruce willies). I wanted to watch DEARJOHN after seeing their synopsis. but must find a suitable partner to watch. This movie alittle too sentimental. Even though they put for P-Public viewing but i reckon only selective group know how to enjoy and appreciate this kind of movie.

Anyway, come bek to the 2 words. This movie makes me think about what U have said. I am gonna give you different senarios and make sure you get the 'real thing'.

1. Used To:
This is either good or bad. So pupil, better use it correctly!
Used to, it can be taking as - for granted. My bf loves me as I know. He buy me gift and give me surprises and think I took them for granted. This is bad!
or
It can be good. Like us used to have fun and now we dont. which I still love to do what we used to do.

Eg: We used to stay together and see each other everyday, stick together everyday. Do things together. In and out together. So deeply in love. *sweet* But your mom said ask you to go out see your friends. Couples dont really have to see each other everyday and sometimes each one of us need our private time. I told her we like this way and we are happy with it. She diam.
So, inconclusion, yes, her will came true. but i hate it!
This is bad. Coz I still love the way we were last time. But now we have our own life which is a little scary.

Eg: We used to know each other password, be it ATM, email, or whatever. Of coz there are things still dont know. Until one day U told your mom I check your email, and I kena warning. From then on we set our own. We change everythg except 1 or 2 items. So, in conslusion, yes, she won.
Privacy and respect both share the same concept and idea. One step mistake can ruin the whole structure. Which our r/s still not as open as what I think we can be. We can discuss.

Next - Past;
It can either be good or bad.
Bad when a person refused to change and keep humping on the past.
Good when we had bad time and now we've changed and improved. Past is a guide for us.

Eg: U said: U used to like to bring me along to wherever U go in the Past. But not now.
So, in conclusion, this is bad. Past is holding us.

Eg: The past I always wanted to create surprises for you. but, well, as u know, I just cant. Maybe infront of you, im such small bee. useless. But I did try. just not enuf confident. Worry you dont like it or as happy as you wld be.
So, in conclusion, the past gives me no confidence in doing things. I blame god for not giving me enuf strenght to over come it. and I jealous u always get nice things. Of coz man.... I am girl. Easier. Man hard to get gift. bully me!

Summary. After watching DEARJOHN synopsis, it makes me feel like im in love again. I love that feeling and love pushes us futher. We should love whatever we do and happy bugs will follow behind it. It comes in a set.

Love what you have, what you do. Always.
No matter where you are, no matter what, no matter who. Love everything you owned.

Love and sensible.

^Lovely*

Happy Family!!!

Belated = Riped
Late already still sweet!

Happy Belated V-day! *dont ask me to repeat*

A big surprise! A jack in a box looks like paul frank. But he looks like a sick one. :( oops..
But it's fun playing. I always like music box. But..buttt.... this music box alittle too scary!
Thank God no one buys me Jack in a box music box when i was young, else phobia!

Lucky charm! Yes!!! Charm mari charm!

Love shines! blurb blurb blurb! So everyone will love me more! coz I am lovely! Woohoo!
(err.. alittle thick face i know...Muahaha! *laugh out loud*)

Duckie chew! Yes!!! Chew chew chew!! Attack enermy!
*Cough cough* alittle too pokemon rite? muahahaha! *laugh out loud*

Star blink!Yes!!! Bling bling bling! I am your lucky star! I bring good luck!
*knock knock* sounded like God of fortune! Chai shen dao! muahahaha! *laugh out loud*

Donut Roll! Yes!!! Thunder! Lightning! Donut is my float aka protector. No one can harm me!
*scratch head* I am the 5th family member of Mr incredible?!! muahahaha! *laugh out loud*

OMG! My lucky charms are incredible! They are like me!!!! L.O.V.E.L.Y!!!

Welcome! *hugz* new little girls!
Finally got name for them. But not sure if they are nice.
Square head aka Flat O Deer = Smokey
Lamb chop = Toby

Flat O Deer with a puss-in-boots eyes! looks so huggable and want to protect her.
So I name her Smokey! She smokes U to fall into her trap! muahahah! *laugh out loud*

Lamb chop with a creamy color body. The both ears alsmost cover the droopy sexy eyes.
So I name her Toby. Toberone white chocolate and brown chocolate color. Yummy!!!
Wah seh! Sounded like I keep munching non-stop. Always think about food! snacks! *yish!*

Now I have Girapoo, Bear2, Smokey and Toby! 2 boys 2 girls! Perfect Pair! Sirotan, LPP, MCC and the cow! 8 leh! can play 5 on 5 basket ball! woohoooo!!! *laugh out loud*

Happy Family!

^Lovely^

Sadly, sorry is not enough

Magic word doesnt work for everyone.

I missed my flight.
I was speechless. My heart beating fast and like something bad gonna happen.
The nearer the date is, the more tiring I feel.
Finally my CNY break done.
I hate this office coz it makes my heart shiver everytime I step in.

Anyway, I finally made it to go to your house for dinner.
Your dad was not around. And your mom ask me to 'Shhh..' when I ask her where's your dad.
And I ask Why and what happen. And she say 'Adult thing. Shhh...'
So I shut up. I was tired to ask further.

You went into your room. And I was left alone.
*Awkward feeling*
This place used to be very familiar.
Now feel wierd. I know it's my issue.

I dont know to stand or sit or how to react.
I am a guest. And I should have a guest look and behave like one.
Remb your mom said I am just a guest and I should tell her where I go and what I want.
So I stood there and wait for instruction. *Kidding la*
I stood for awhile. Almost plan to sit at one corner, play game and wait for you to come out.
Not sure how long or until your mom calls you.

You ask me if I am not happy.
I was not. I was alrite.
I dare not to dig or go check out things in your room. Coz I dont have that habit since young.
Mama say this is manner. Must respect. Cannot anyhow touch ppl's stuffs.
You arrange it nicely and now very neat.
Later I touch all fall down. My 'angel' hand is so 'magical'.

You keep all our things nicely. Thank you.
Do you think I should take it back from you?
To do add-on or touch up.
Or hang around my space decorate my bed abit.

You ask me if I am not happy again.
I was not. I was alrite.
This place used to be very familiar. Now feeling uneasy.
Your mama say respect your privacy.
So I sit diam diam. Later you say I noisy.

Remb the very first day I went to your house.
Aft drinking session and I stayed over. The next day so scared.
I do care about my first impression coz I care about you.
I want to make you look good and your parent proud to have me as their in-law.
'Chey wah'.. I know not so fast but atleast something good to leave behind.

I do not have a pretty look or feature.
So must do something or give a better body languge to balance it.
I earn the impression.

I hope no one ask you why your gf like that one..
Or none disapprove us.
Well, I dont mind if they say you deserve a better one.
But, I do mind if they say your taste bud is bad.

Anyway, I am still glad and always glad to know/have you in my life.
Never and will change.

^Faithfulovely^