Everything you need,

... is a setting to remember.

Everything comes with a setting.

Me and you, our setting is - Laughter

You and the kids, the setting is - Sayang

Me and the kids, the setting is - TLC

You and your family, the setting is - Bising

Me and my family, the setting is - Hidden love

All settings joint one another together. They are not screw, they are not fix. 

But they are the key to link both of you.

Where is the master key?and what is the setting?

♥ Lovely

Wonder

Laze Around

Thought you will call me. But you didnt.
I waited till 2plus nearly 3am. and the blocked number called.
I finally gave up and go to bed and sleep.
I was tired. I was exhausted.

Not your fault. coz no one ask me to wait.
Somewhere of the antenna or signal was out.

Thought you would call me and tell me the answer and hint.
Thought I was gonna get the ang pao from you by answering your hint.
Thought you gonna answer my the other 2 more questions.
Thought if you didnt answer and I would still get my ang pao. hahahaha
Thought....

you poke the bubbles..

I dont blame you. Coz these are not important.
I dont blame you. Coz you still got work the next day.
I dont blame you. Coz I am the one boh liao need entertainment.

I feel good resting at home.
I read everyday online and be blur the whole noon.
I apply job and wait around.
I wish before I go on trip they will call me to confirm a job.

I wish, I thought, I dream.
Stop dreaming, be somebody. hahahaha

I had a weird dream and I struggle. Wonder what was the dream about. I cant see anything in the dream, all dark. I know I struggle awhile and I started to settle down in the dark.. Since nothing gonna change even if i struggle, so what's the point? Waste energy.

Monday we supposed to go, Thursday we supposed to go and wonder when we can make it.
I watch the trailer again and again. I watch my fav mtv again and again. I repeat the same thing everyday for the past few days. I wonder what's wrong with me.

I seriously wonder.

*blurovely*

U are my future

Hmmmm......

The room

Woke up in a fresh morning. Hearing the birds chipping out there happily. Seems like they had a nice sleep too.Watching the cars and buses moving fast and people rushing to work. Smile, I feel so fortunate at this moment. hmmm..... while I was staring out from the window and feel the awaken air blowing from outside.

Walk out from the room, saw a note and a glass of fresh juice on the table. 

The note says: Good morning baby, hope you had a good night sleep. Did you dream about us? Love. Didnt want to wake you up to send me off to work but I did kiss you good bye on your forehead. Be good and make sure you finish the juice. Dont get gastric again! Call you during lunch. Muaks! Love ya baby! ....... Hubby, Sign-off with a smiley face.

The note.

I reply from a far: I cant seem to have enuf of you and I dream about us everyday. I love you too my baby. Smooch!

Walk into the room and put the note into my drawer. Every note is a love that help us to get closer each day. All notes are contagious!

After wash-up, time to clean the house. Planning how to beautify the house and what to prepare for dinner. Another surprise for the day. Remember, everyday is brand new in life, mold it according to your will. 

lalalalalala~ house chores, surf net check the latest news, keep myself up-to-date though I am not working now. Blah blah blah for the day.....

Remember once you felt sick, gastric pain if I am not wrong. I told you I wanted to make rice-water for you. And you were crying say no. Your mommy was so worried about you and she dont know what to prepare for you. You kept nagging say dont want rice water, and you will do the same to me if i fall sick one day. Ask me to watch out. hahaha... poor baby! But you did say you want to go market with me to help me.I refused to.I insisted to ask you to stay home and let me do. Oh well, reached home your mom cook everything already. Disappointed.

Remember I chase (i didnt actually) you out from the small room in office and I spill tea on my white shirt. And you commented you like my emo msn title. And how we sneak up for a break and I ran when I saw princess coming. Hilarious! 

Hilarious! Life never dull with you!

Remember we used to work ard the same area. Early morning we go to work together and after work I will wait for you or we meet somewhere then go out. And during working hour I will sms you wherever I go. One day something sad happened and I was @ orchard far east and we msn each other. I slap myself for being so emo.

I also remember you told me your parent say we should strongly be together. And I ask why so coz that's too strong a word to me. And you replied me said she see you happy. Well, I was angry during the conversation coz something went wrong. You were trying hard to explain and I was too stubborn to believe in you. Sad case. Wrong persistence at correct timing and Correct persistence at wrong timing.

I got to learn how to be more open^. I kinda possessive over certain issues, and this is personal preference. Sorry for giving you so much headaches in the past. My bad! I know I cant say anything to compensate, I wish for a time machine. ohmmm... Grin.

Well, let bygone be bygone. The past make us a better person and now we are clearer which direction we wanted to go. I love what I have now and wish for a better one soon. Such as I promise not to keep food now. I will top-up after I finish the old batch. Stupid la me! 

Time to wake up and plan what to have for dinner. Tomorrow no more outing, tonite we can have something simple, dont need to prepare for tomorrow edi. Disappointed. Sigh..

*all the scenarios above have proof. Reference will be provided upon special^ request.

^T&C apply.

2nd of the month

The Secret

“Here is the deepest secret nobody knows.

Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

And the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

Which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide.

And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart.

I carry your heart.

I carry it in my heart.”

♥ Happy Anniversary! ♥

i am not sure if this is still valid. if this is not, please ignore it. i would like to keep it in my blog. I love what we have been through. I love the past and I pick the good and mold a better future. Thank you for everything. you though me how to love.

*Lovely*

So sweet ♥♥

Monday has never been so sweet before.

Are you being a good girl?
Awww.... early morning make my heart melts.
This is sweeter than my fav chocolate.

Remember the first day @ your house.
You were gone after I came out from toilet. *worried*
And I saw this note..

Awww.... feel so sweet.. :p I love it! ♥
Today just like the first day we met. ♥ Happy first Day!! ♥

Smooch smooch!

^l.o.v.e.l.y^

♥ Uniquely ♥

Used to...
Refer to the topic on Feb 26 Friday Sensitive Words - Today's new words

This blog used to be a hidden social media for both of us. Now it has become so commercialize.
I sort of lost the touch and feel. I wish to pick it up again. Time to run a new one?

Capture every moment in life. I am super kiasu.
Memory will fade off in months but photos will not.
Internet might be down one day but computer can be fixed.
This year is all about good happiness and improvement!

Treasure treasure treasure!

^Lovely^

♥ Me Likes ♥

♥ Something memorable ♥

This is as sweet as my name!
When I call 'charmsss'.... The power reveal ~
So magical and unbelievable.

♥ Lovely ♥

Away

Up up away...

I am going home for few days. I will join mom and sis to Bangkok. See you when I am back and I hope before I go I would have a confirmed job already. Wish me luck!!!

Nothing more important than getting a good job to sustain life. I am trying to save hard now.

I will go Bangkok to check something and bring back nice stuffs. Let's see what I get later. i cant buy alot coz I have a tight pocket. You be good! take good care and see you on Saturday. My cousin and her family all coming down on Saturday. I got to sleep in the living hall which I was angry about when my aunt told me. I pay rent and I was instructed to sleep in the living hall.while my cousin can still sleep in his master bed room. Hate it!

I live for myself here but everyone in the house keep asking me how come I quit and how come this how come that. I plan to go home and everyone keep asking me why I go home and why I go holiday why this why that. I know they care but I think this is kinda over-board. They treat me like shit and you think I should report to them like my mom? They even scolded my mom ask her not to ask me so much and let me handle myself. But how come ended up they question me so much?

My aunt buy the same food every weekend. I hate soggy noddle and i hate wonton noodle. Just becoz of my cousin who likes to eat then she keep buying the same thing over and over and over again. Im not her son! i know she take care of me but thank you.

I should start a Parent Education Centre. To educate them how to express their love thru their action not by nagging. Not by buying the same food. Not by providing freedom. You think?

oh well, how come I suddenly complain abt them? siao liao.. hahaha...

Time to go to bed. Happy New Day!!

*Lovely*

Last Day of CNY

The new beginning.

Chap Goh Mei! The big bright shimmering full moon hanging in the dark blue sky.
The moon saying hello to everyone on earth greeting all of us say : Good bye to yesterday, last nite and the day before and welcome the brand new year. May good luck, good health and fortune be with you! Have a great year ahead!

I promised to change, no more taking things for granted.
I promised to be better, differentiate what is priority.
I promised to improve, to be more understanding.
I promised to respect and be flexible (this one just added)

*phew* New Year new resolution! So many to fulfill. Wish me luck!

I saw what I should not have seen.

I heard what I should not have heard.

I read what I should not have read.

I was not happy about last nite, yesterday or the day before.

I was upset over matters.

I have over sensitive character sometimes.

I think too much and too elaborate.

I suffocate something and some part of life.

I misuse certain situation.

I was over board.

No matter what, I will try try try my best to be a better person. 

Let's be happy and discuss something happy and laugh together.

The first day after Chap Goh Mei, a guy told me say : Nicole, you are not sexy and not too pretty but naturally attractive. What is that??? I am confused. This is what I should not hear and should ignore.

I am so don't understand coz my partner never say that to me. *laugh out loud* He always scold me idiot, ask me to go die and lots of bad things. He never say im not pretty, not sexy not attractive but noisy. *laugh*

Chap Goh Mei itself, I saw something that I should not have seen. I told myself not to be over sensitive and be cool. My mood got distracted awhile but I was calm. Thinking I should let it go and pretend never have seen. I am confused about my mood and feeling. I ignore becoz I love this person too much or I just don't care. I ignore becoz I think we both don't want to have ugly ending or we are just waiting to end the situation gently and naturally. Weird situation.

The day before Chap Goh Mei, I got deeply hurt. Not so much about being offended but rather blamed. Well, inside my heart was bleeding. I felt that poking sharp pain. I didn't mention and claim anything. I think the person who hurt me didn't actually realize how painful it was and how much it meant to me. 

Oh well, above all examples are just part of life. After Chap Goh Mei is another brand new year ahead. Tomorrow will be much better and I shall see, which they commented that Chicken will be having good luck this year. But i edi lose money from the start. Do you mean my luck can only last for 6-9 months? Wow! So Cinderella!

Good luck chicken! Go go go! make a prosperous year ahead!! kokokkoookokokokokok... *Laugh out loud*

*Chikadee*

All sparks

4 Stars!

If I can make them into a charm, I would.

If I can grow old with them, I would.

If I can keep them clean and soft, I would.

If they can grow old with me, they would.

If they can make me smile, they would.

If they can make me give them bed time story, they would.

They are the new group! They are gonna stick to me wherever I go.

muahahahaha! Let's see who suffer now! *Evil laugh*

4 stars!

From Left top: Toby, Bear2, Smokey

Front: Girapoo

Saviour!

Far Right: Sirotan aka Ah Tan.

2 more Notty Stars! 1 Nuah Star! 1 Mad Cow Star! 

Last but not least, 1 Crazy Fat Star! (the Santa-like who gave them to me!)

Life without them is No star!

Life without them is No spark!

Life without them is No romance!

Life without them is No joke!

Life without them is No Bed Time Story!

Life without them is NO SHIOK!!!!!

*Laugh*

Love,

^Mother of all stars!^

Look!

Bloomz...

Love grows.
Love is contagious.
Love is awesome!

Sirotan with his new 'grandma' hair style.*blurb blurb blurb* Pop out..ang mo lao..LOL

Siroton has a set of thongs and he likes to use it to curl his hair up. he is the latest women's fav. LOL

I love Sirotan and the 4 small ones.
From top left:
Bear2, Smokey, Girapoo and Toby
Middle white seal:
Sirotan

Our family has just expanded. Welcome the 2 new kids *woohooo*
FlatO Deer - Smokey and Lamb chop - Toby. *Claps*

Love you all always.

^Lovely mom^