If 22 is too old for 19, then what about 28?
this is insulting... :(
hahaha....
18 Dec 2009 7pm Vibes Comm Christmas Party @ East Coast Timbre Mobile.
A place that will make people fall in love with, a place that will make people wonder what if it rains, a place that you will bring your loved one to dine-in, a place that you will want to date at.
I was totally amazed when i first step into the place. Ya! everything is so mobile. Tmbre Mobile what...kakaka :D... The live band stage, the mobile container, the kitchen, the tables and chairs, the lightings, the set up..everything just so amazing.. *Eyes rolling*
We set-up a table for presents and games gadgets. Then started to order our first drink of the night! Woohoo!!! free drinks for whole night long!! Yeah!!! *Lychee Martini, Apple Martini...*
Too bad, another group of colleagues stuck in office due to the LG ad. Poor thing! Well, bosses and ppl around kept calling them and rush them over. LOL... this is so family! *love*
Well, as usual. Marcus was the one who always say coming coming coming and still there. and Anderson, Bryon, Nurul & Johari shared one car. Bryon drove them here. Surprisingly, none wanted to share car with Marcus. Thats funny!!! Bryon win!
DT and few colleagues were talking about Marcus. Complaining how slow and slopy is he.. LOL! Then i act! They tot i was formally from Media Corp acting school. Muahahaha! True lor..He is damn slow lor. Everytime ask me to go meeting with him, if he dont rush me, i will take my own sweet time to settle my work. Once he cant wait any longer, he will get angry and throw tantrum. What a weirdo! Ppl cant be late but he can nuah! Wat the.... *Turn off*. Oh Well, DT says he is not a good husband! and haha Well, ppl out there, you know what you want lor hor...
Then some jst trying to make Anderson drunk. Haha boss hor very bad one lor..He told the whole world he cant drink, then everyone come & attack him straight away! hahahaha...poor Anderson!
Then picture picture! Cheers Cheers! Groom *Ian* & Bride *Fiona* went around toasting. Adrian, the most si wen guy, say he cant drink too much of beer, he will get diarroea. Then Migz kept asking him to drink and guess what he say " Later I LS in my pants you help me to wipe?" then we all LOLOLOLOLOL! Adrian in the office will never be so un-glam! hahaha...There you go! *Wink* Wolf will show its true color once the moon is bright up high. *Laugh*
The pizza, food, desserts all - *slurp* *Yummy*!!!! I want to go again!!! i want to have their pizza again~ 30% of food, 50% drinks 20% laughter filled up my tummy for the night. So full!
Oh oh! come bek to the 22, 19 and 28 number thingy. Melvin is 22, he is gay and he has a bf who is 20. And he saw this blue shirt guy who was celebrating his fren's birthday over at the other side. He says he is cute and he thinks he is straight. Pearlyn also think he is straight. Well, Shu Min thought so too. For me, i have no comment. Coz I was not interested (haha more like i dont know how to see coz it's not obvious enuf) and I didnt really notice which one until........
DT sat down infront of us and offer to walk over and tell the blue shirt guy about Melvin likes him and Shu Min and me want to know him. Then I keep pushing Melvin to do and make friend. He is so young! Damn! He told us his current bf only together for 6 months. and this is the longest! haha JS say yalor..time to change edi since this is the longest you claim..LOL bad sia this boss!
Then DT walked over and pull the guy! OMG!!!! Melvin panic and he started to hold Shu Min tightly. Partyly he is high, and she has to help taking care of him.. Then DT help to intro intro then I quickly walk away... OMG! This is too much for me.. *scary*
Party continued with live band! They all started to sing and dacing around.. Drink and smoke and scream and picture!!!!
Ended up the group came aft 10pm..By then we already cool down and half done. Those aunties, uncles who have families all gone. Left the single ladies and boys and men around. Share cab home or hubby fetch or ...... Dont know how and when they actually disappeared. Then ended up, Marcus sent me home.. Yeah! free transport! He just cant stand the noisy'ness of the rest of the colleagues and go home see his other half.. LOL..
Well, i enjoyed myself ! guess i have no more reputation liao! hahaha
Looking forward for more parties and next year bonuses and company trip!!
then i can settle down my life edi...
*Lovely*
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Suddenly so many things to settle.
Christmas is near at the corner. Rushing out Xmas gift to clients and rushing to close 2009 jobs and billings. Work aside, i need to prepare gift for new year. Ya, you got it right. New Year. Not CNY Not Xmas Not Valentine's day Not any Anniversary but New Year!
Erm.. how should I say.. This might not be a meaningful gift. erm..no no.. should say, this is meaningful gift but has no meaning for that particular day. Yea!
Serve as a remembrance or souvenir or something worth keeping. Erm.. doubt for the last choice though.. haha coz only me like it that way. not sure if 'he' likes it. anyway, 2 more weeks to go and everything will be different and total brand new.
Kinda sad to say good by to 2009. Maybe I jst had too much of fun since 2008, and sad to say 2009 isnt any better than 2008. I missed 2008 alot. I had most fun during 2008.
Well, we fell, we know the pain, we cry, we wake up then realize what is all life about.
So long 2009 and hope 2010 will be much better. I have drafted out my 2010 plan, hope i can fulfill them all. (keep my fingers crossed tight tight).
Time to get back to my gift. Farewell 2009 and Hellow 2010!
*lovely*
Christmas is near at the corner. Rushing out Xmas gift to clients and rushing to close 2009 jobs and billings. Work aside, i need to prepare gift for new year. Ya, you got it right. New Year. Not CNY Not Xmas Not Valentine's day Not any Anniversary but New Year!
Erm.. how should I say.. This might not be a meaningful gift. erm..no no.. should say, this is meaningful gift but has no meaning for that particular day. Yea!
Serve as a remembrance or souvenir or something worth keeping. Erm.. doubt for the last choice though.. haha coz only me like it that way. not sure if 'he' likes it. anyway, 2 more weeks to go and everything will be different and total brand new.
Kinda sad to say good by to 2009. Maybe I jst had too much of fun since 2008, and sad to say 2009 isnt any better than 2008. I missed 2008 alot. I had most fun during 2008.
Well, we fell, we know the pain, we cry, we wake up then realize what is all life about.
So long 2009 and hope 2010 will be much better. I have drafted out my 2010 plan, hope i can fulfill them all. (keep my fingers crossed tight tight).
Time to get back to my gift. Farewell 2009 and Hellow 2010!
*lovely*
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Happy One month anniversay!!!
yeah!!! *heartaching*
Time flies to fast. One month edi since I moved out.
Time to do a simple - One month review:
- Time spent on the phone talking?
* Not more than 10 hours
- Time spent on SMS?
* Not more than 80 sms
- Time met together?
* Not more than 1 hour
Conclusion: What is this? Grade E - Worse than a stranger.
How can we improve our r/s like this? Teach me, enlighten me please.
If you dont tell me what you doing, and I keep pushing, then do you still think that this will work out well?
Teach me and enlighten me again please.
No way of saying: No choice, i just got to live with it. No way of saying: What can I do? He is like this already.
We are all grown up adult. No more kids. If we keep on living in this life style, we will grow old faster and get more phobia. i try my best to text you whatever I do and wherever i go, but what about u? Is that how you want your partner to treat you? Tell me & enlighten me... I am clueless and I seriously dont know what to do.
yeah!!! *heartaching*
Time flies to fast. One month edi since I moved out.
Time to do a simple - One month review:
- Time spent on the phone talking?
* Not more than 10 hours
- Time spent on SMS?
* Not more than 80 sms
- Time met together?
* Not more than 1 hour
Conclusion: What is this? Grade E - Worse than a stranger.
How can we improve our r/s like this? Teach me, enlighten me please.
If you dont tell me what you doing, and I keep pushing, then do you still think that this will work out well?
Teach me and enlighten me again please.
No way of saying: No choice, i just got to live with it. No way of saying: What can I do? He is like this already.
We are all grown up adult. No more kids. If we keep on living in this life style, we will grow old faster and get more phobia. i try my best to text you whatever I do and wherever i go, but what about u? Is that how you want your partner to treat you? Tell me & enlighten me... I am clueless and I seriously dont know what to do.
We are talking about INITIATIVE & HEART
One month we have 31 days and 31 days we have 744 hours and deducted off sleeping time 8hrs, we still have 496 hours. But what did we do with these 496 hrs? We have wasted most of it @ work and some other nonsense. If this is what/how you want from your partner to do to you, then alrite. I got it right now. I spent one month to try and give in and try to proof I am not an idiot and i think i can do better than my past. Which i was wrong. totally wrong!
I give myself support, hope, courage and time. I pamper myself and i tell myself, if i dun love myself, how could i love you. I ease my own fear, phobia and problems. I tot this way i could atleast make you feel burdenless. Then you can concentrate in your career. Being someone understanding is not easy, having constant hope in a r/s is much harder.
TRUST is in the air
I dont care what other ppl think and commented about you. Well, your action dont really proof to me anything though. I insisted to believe in you. Well, I hope you are clear of what you want now.
Extraordinary & Specialty
Yes, we had lots happy time together and we have build up lots of fun interesting hobbies together which i think you are awesome & someone so special to me. I feel sad whenever i pass by the toy shops or what we used to do together and try to give each other suprises. We celebrate odd days. If you celebrate this month anniversary, I will do random arrangement. Even thats jst a normal day, we will pamper ourselves with nice food or fun toy or happy movie.
We are weird but fun. This makes me sad. I guess there are things we can never change or overcome. Such as my stubborness and your timing problem. I always think, if you love that person, you will do whatever it takes to be there as soon as possible. You will want to be the first one to know everything. You will want to impress and stand by the person and be the only final one. I think im such hopeless person to u. anyway....
Farewell 2009
Thank you for giving me such sweet memorable time, spending all these while with me. For this anniversary, I have done up something, since during your birthday (we, with the kids, didnt even have opportunity to pass you the gift) you were busy with your colleagues celebrating in office, so I decided to give you something for 2009. You can use it, you can throw it away, you can hide it, you can do what you like with it. Will try to give you by before 31 Dec 2009, it wont take long to pass you thing. Less than 10seconds. So long 2009!
*lovely*
I love you!
I love you are who you are
i love you as you will be
I love you because there's this little part
(My heart)
that tells me that
You and I
simply meant to be.
Today morning till now feeling uneasy. My heart feels weird. Something just not right. Wonder what gonna happen again...
Today Andy Goh the printer came to find me. Supposed yesterday he text me say wan to have lunch with me. Find me either for more biz or invite me to attend talk. i was out with boss and told him no. Coz i had full day plan for my clients.
Then he pushed to today. OMG! i went out and i totally forgotten abt this lunch appointment. He says he wanted to pass me a book, therefore i go. i ask anderson to go with me, fiona and kenneth. Coz that 2 man know him and i have fiona as my lunch kaki.. Everyone happy then I relieve.
Then ended up only me and him had lunch over amoy st hawker. Super duper crowded and i hated it so much. We had a quick lunch with those strangers beside us. I scolded him becoz of the JCC project, the golf balls missing from the FA. Got to know he and the printer we are currently working merged. they will supply man power for installation while the main boss, wilson, will do the printing.
OH Gosh! from then on i started to bombard him kaokao.. Coz he supply man power for installation and the 3 installations i have now and past weeks all screwed up! what the hell happening now?!! Can someone explain to me what went wrong?
Now i know! They supply man power and their man power suck!!! Go suck their own thumb! my client ask me to go down to see asap and told me off over the phone. But of cos they were nice enough to ask me to re-do everything and Anderson is smart enough to ask them compensate the whole production. Good job Anderson!
Overall, i jst hate talking to Andy. i dont know his real intention. All i know is he is super duper irritating and i feel like kicking him on his face. And after lunch he walked me back to office. And DT was having his smoking brk. Then from far, he say, eh! nicole! your bf arr?!! I was like WTF u!!! U blind or deaf? or the smoke gets in your eyes? IF the world only left with one man, it can never ever be him! I rather die than having him as my bf! F me man!
then i told DT, hey, ppl got wife and kids. you pls hor... then he replied, wat's wrong with tat and y? Hello DT, nothing is wrong with that to you but that is super duber wrong to me! Firstly, if u dun take him, then dun throw to me. Secondly, i edi have someone and I dont need another one for spare or for watsoever usage/need. Thirdly, he is your supplier not mine. So for wat i need him for? Tell me DT.. He laugh then i walked off.
He came here to pass me a book and the book is now sitting on the desk! He is jst trying to convince me how to think rich. Of coz i think rich, i everyday think like Obama.. But who cares?
DT pls! dont make me pai seh and dont want this kind of thinking and judgement. I hate being accused and i hate taking this kind of nonsense! pls bear in mind for this. No more funny funny thing abt r/s. I love my boy and thats all! cleared and done!
Well, once more i will kick his face! and DT please dun abuse me with this kind of ppl. I thk i deserve someone better. much much better definately!
Another brand new day with more fun stuffs again...
Lovely! woohooo!!!
I love you are who you are
i love you as you will be
I love you because there's this little part
(My heart)
that tells me that
You and I
simply meant to be.
Today morning till now feeling uneasy. My heart feels weird. Something just not right. Wonder what gonna happen again...
Today Andy Goh the printer came to find me. Supposed yesterday he text me say wan to have lunch with me. Find me either for more biz or invite me to attend talk. i was out with boss and told him no. Coz i had full day plan for my clients.
Then he pushed to today. OMG! i went out and i totally forgotten abt this lunch appointment. He says he wanted to pass me a book, therefore i go. i ask anderson to go with me, fiona and kenneth. Coz that 2 man know him and i have fiona as my lunch kaki.. Everyone happy then I relieve.
Then ended up only me and him had lunch over amoy st hawker. Super duper crowded and i hated it so much. We had a quick lunch with those strangers beside us. I scolded him becoz of the JCC project, the golf balls missing from the FA. Got to know he and the printer we are currently working merged. they will supply man power for installation while the main boss, wilson, will do the printing.
OH Gosh! from then on i started to bombard him kaokao.. Coz he supply man power for installation and the 3 installations i have now and past weeks all screwed up! what the hell happening now?!! Can someone explain to me what went wrong?
Now i know! They supply man power and their man power suck!!! Go suck their own thumb! my client ask me to go down to see asap and told me off over the phone. But of cos they were nice enough to ask me to re-do everything and Anderson is smart enough to ask them compensate the whole production. Good job Anderson!
Overall, i jst hate talking to Andy. i dont know his real intention. All i know is he is super duper irritating and i feel like kicking him on his face. And after lunch he walked me back to office. And DT was having his smoking brk. Then from far, he say, eh! nicole! your bf arr?!! I was like WTF u!!! U blind or deaf? or the smoke gets in your eyes? IF the world only left with one man, it can never ever be him! I rather die than having him as my bf! F me man!
then i told DT, hey, ppl got wife and kids. you pls hor... then he replied, wat's wrong with tat and y? Hello DT, nothing is wrong with that to you but that is super duber wrong to me! Firstly, if u dun take him, then dun throw to me. Secondly, i edi have someone and I dont need another one for spare or for watsoever usage/need. Thirdly, he is your supplier not mine. So for wat i need him for? Tell me DT.. He laugh then i walked off.
He came here to pass me a book and the book is now sitting on the desk! He is jst trying to convince me how to think rich. Of coz i think rich, i everyday think like Obama.. But who cares?
DT pls! dont make me pai seh and dont want this kind of thinking and judgement. I hate being accused and i hate taking this kind of nonsense! pls bear in mind for this. No more funny funny thing abt r/s. I love my boy and thats all! cleared and done!
Well, once more i will kick his face! and DT please dun abuse me with this kind of ppl. I thk i deserve someone better. much much better definately!
Another brand new day with more fun stuffs again...
Lovely! woohooo!!!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
A happy day!
Hubby to see me! woohoo! *opps..sorry im too thick face to call him my hubby, which he is not yet. but i edi treat him like one since long ago.*
Anyway, I cried last nite when he called me. Cried becoz...shhh..... my nose bleed..and my head was super pain until my tears started flowing aft awhile. A moment later i noticed my tissue was in red. Then i started to panic, thought what went wrong.
Well, if i dont tell, no one will know. So no one will worry about me. Therefore, no one will scold me or ask me to take good care of myself and one lesser thing to worry about in life. Thats what hubby says.
Today Adrian and Darlene was talking about diamond ring and some topic. Then out of a sudden adrian was asking if im engaged, my fb put that status. then i was like erm... not sure leh..Like im the only one thk im engaged.(Malu). Then i text hubby to ask if I can put in our pic as profile pic. But he needs to check first. Anyway, Adrian is a married man who doesnt look like his age. The main thing is, can we have open r/s in fb? i didnt even dare to put up anything in your fb. I scared hubby get angry.
Well, hubby came last nite and we talk and hug and kiss. Finaly after (2 days before 1 month) so long. And my mom worried about me staying at my aunt's place. Every single little thing she worried coz my uncle's incident. Since after he passed away, everyone at home got traumatized. If she cant get me, she will paranoid and worried the whole day.
Not only work, family and hubby..everything just make me tense up.. This is why my migraine is back. Hubby continues to punish me, he sounded like dont wan me to tell ppl ard abt us. I am not sure but i know i nv want an imaginary hubby/bf. i just want to know why and what's in his mind. I dont want to make him abgry again. i have low self confidence and i have to deal with my own fear and yet i have to juggle all the problems i have. God! please help!
I have learnt my mistake, i know whats the prob and i know how to deal with it. but fact is, he is not willing to open up. everyone thinks we are no more together, his colleague is his new gf. Then wat about me still calling him hubby and treating him like one? *sob sob* Really no idea what to do next.
i do not how far they have been. how often they talk and how frequent they texting each other. All i know is, i have limited space to play with. I am afraid to know the fact they are together, which he insisted they are just close friend. Well, i trust him for whatever he says, coz r/s is all about trust. Notice everytime i send him msg, he say will cal me but ended nothing. I msg him and tell him our prob, try to make a step closer, but cant seems to work out well. Sign..when will all these end and when can we have a better life?
Moving forward, i slept very well last nite. It did help! Yes! YES! YES!!! but how long can that last? None knows. I sincerely hope we can go bek to the very first year and i wish i could turn back the time and i could change the whole situation.
He is having prob with his career, i hope to help. I respect and stand by him for whatever decision he has made. He wants to buy car, i will save. So that incase he didnt get his salary, we will still have savings.
I have booked next year trips, planning for diving courses in April-May. Shall start my lesson soon in Feb aft CNY. Then will go mid year holiday for either diving or sightseeing. then year end will be our honeymoon holiday. A 21days open ticket to 5-6 places. WOW! Sounded so nice! Oh Well, all cancelled.
NVM, all i want is patch back the r/s and make sure everything is well done agn then will proceed for the holiday planning. Feb I will be going bek home for CNY, i m hoping he can come with me. Coz i hope to show him what is his stand and his priority.
Am not sure if he will come...
Anyway, time to go to bed. Tomoro will have another long day to go. Averagely 3 meetings aday and friday will be out company xmas party. Hope someone can arrange to send me home if happen i drink. And sat morning will go for swim again.... Hope my migraine better soon.
All the best and hope he will be more open to share...
*love you hubby, no matter what. *
Hubby to see me! woohoo! *opps..sorry im too thick face to call him my hubby, which he is not yet. but i edi treat him like one since long ago.*
Anyway, I cried last nite when he called me. Cried becoz...shhh..... my nose bleed..and my head was super pain until my tears started flowing aft awhile. A moment later i noticed my tissue was in red. Then i started to panic, thought what went wrong.
Well, if i dont tell, no one will know. So no one will worry about me. Therefore, no one will scold me or ask me to take good care of myself and one lesser thing to worry about in life. Thats what hubby says.
Today Adrian and Darlene was talking about diamond ring and some topic. Then out of a sudden adrian was asking if im engaged, my fb put that status. then i was like erm... not sure leh..Like im the only one thk im engaged.(Malu). Then i text hubby to ask if I can put in our pic as profile pic. But he needs to check first. Anyway, Adrian is a married man who doesnt look like his age. The main thing is, can we have open r/s in fb? i didnt even dare to put up anything in your fb. I scared hubby get angry.
Well, hubby came last nite and we talk and hug and kiss. Finaly after (2 days before 1 month) so long. And my mom worried about me staying at my aunt's place. Every single little thing she worried coz my uncle's incident. Since after he passed away, everyone at home got traumatized. If she cant get me, she will paranoid and worried the whole day.
Not only work, family and hubby..everything just make me tense up.. This is why my migraine is back. Hubby continues to punish me, he sounded like dont wan me to tell ppl ard abt us. I am not sure but i know i nv want an imaginary hubby/bf. i just want to know why and what's in his mind. I dont want to make him abgry again. i have low self confidence and i have to deal with my own fear and yet i have to juggle all the problems i have. God! please help!
I have learnt my mistake, i know whats the prob and i know how to deal with it. but fact is, he is not willing to open up. everyone thinks we are no more together, his colleague is his new gf. Then wat about me still calling him hubby and treating him like one? *sob sob* Really no idea what to do next.
i do not how far they have been. how often they talk and how frequent they texting each other. All i know is, i have limited space to play with. I am afraid to know the fact they are together, which he insisted they are just close friend. Well, i trust him for whatever he says, coz r/s is all about trust. Notice everytime i send him msg, he say will cal me but ended nothing. I msg him and tell him our prob, try to make a step closer, but cant seems to work out well. Sign..when will all these end and when can we have a better life?
Moving forward, i slept very well last nite. It did help! Yes! YES! YES!!! but how long can that last? None knows. I sincerely hope we can go bek to the very first year and i wish i could turn back the time and i could change the whole situation.
He is having prob with his career, i hope to help. I respect and stand by him for whatever decision he has made. He wants to buy car, i will save. So that incase he didnt get his salary, we will still have savings.
I have booked next year trips, planning for diving courses in April-May. Shall start my lesson soon in Feb aft CNY. Then will go mid year holiday for either diving or sightseeing. then year end will be our honeymoon holiday. A 21days open ticket to 5-6 places. WOW! Sounded so nice! Oh Well, all cancelled.
NVM, all i want is patch back the r/s and make sure everything is well done agn then will proceed for the holiday planning. Feb I will be going bek home for CNY, i m hoping he can come with me. Coz i hope to show him what is his stand and his priority.
Am not sure if he will come...
Anyway, time to go to bed. Tomoro will have another long day to go. Averagely 3 meetings aday and friday will be out company xmas party. Hope someone can arrange to send me home if happen i drink. And sat morning will go for swim again.... Hope my migraine better soon.
All the best and hope he will be more open to share...
*love you hubby, no matter what. *
Monday, December 14, 2009
I am in-love with my blog again...
Since a year ago i stopped blogging. due to, tons of reason,same shit different day, work work work. But since after your birthday and lots of hidden reason, out of no choice, i blog again.
Monday always the most sickening day to have for the week. Today surprisingly everything go smoothly. Other than the usual case kena questions till up side down, rushing boh liao jobs, gossips with nonsense, chasing dead deadlines etc nothing special. 7th week in office but feel like 7 years.
Went for production with Marcus and Anderson. Marcus still sick, he is with his 'sexy' voice now. Which i am super happy about it, coz he is so irritating. He jst cant talk to me properly, always must tease me to get things done. So hard to get him to talk and i got pissed when i talk to him after 10 seconds. Anderson as usual the bad temper man in the whole office, understand his job scope and nv blame him. Afterall, they are both 'good' man to chit chat with.
Fiona been bz the whole day, didnt really have chance to talk to her. She got put down by boss during the discussion. I told her she is doing fine and better than certain people. She was touched! haha In life, we need encouragement to move forward. She was there when i need someone to talk to. She was there to encourage me when i was being 'polished' by Anderson.
Time flies. Counting down to Thursday and I shall call for a 1 month celebration. Woohoo! One month without me! How do you feel? i am sad... Since the day i stepped out from the house.
I dont want to presure you. I am putting in effort to build things up and right and i just hope you can take action too. provided if you still want this to happen.
You dont bring me to meet your friends, (u say u jst want to be alone)
you put single in your status, (coz someone change yr status)
you change all your password, (coz u suspect ppl use yr password)
you drift away from me, (u are just too bz)
you hardly text or call me, (u tired and u got lots to do)
we nv meet, (u want to be alone or rest)
we hardly talk, (u ran out of credit)
when i tell u wat i dont like (u ask me to respect it)
i tell u i jealous (u say wat can u do)....
So when i do that to you and you will say FINE!! u want to play like this rite? Throw tantrum! So me how?
I asked you if i shld give up, and you say up to me...
You know this is not what I want to hear and this is not what i want to know and this is not what i expect from you. i never want to ask too much from you coz i am the one who failed you at first.
but all i am asking is such simple thing, your answer, your action.
I dont know how much more time i have left. I just want to do what I want before it is too late. Forgive me if i push you too hard... forgive me for all the stupid things i have done.. Forgive me for being stupid...
I watched "Couple retreat". I think I understand the whole story very well. Talk to my mom abt behaving in r/s. and I feel i have grown up alot. Atleast mature enuf to make me understand r/s has no right or wrong, give until it hurts coz real love hurts, dont take things for granted and be more open in sharing. There is no I or You but US, WE, OUR...
Love is something so magical. Love is hunger, you thrist for it. Love can make someone cut his own wrist or jump from 17th floor. Love can make you laugh and love can make you scream too. Love is amazing after all.
So share me your love..... & I shall love you in return.. I am still waiting for your return. Love ya.
Since a year ago i stopped blogging. due to, tons of reason,same shit different day, work work work. But since after your birthday and lots of hidden reason, out of no choice, i blog again.
Monday always the most sickening day to have for the week. Today surprisingly everything go smoothly. Other than the usual case kena questions till up side down, rushing boh liao jobs, gossips with nonsense, chasing dead deadlines etc nothing special. 7th week in office but feel like 7 years.
Went for production with Marcus and Anderson. Marcus still sick, he is with his 'sexy' voice now. Which i am super happy about it, coz he is so irritating. He jst cant talk to me properly, always must tease me to get things done. So hard to get him to talk and i got pissed when i talk to him after 10 seconds. Anderson as usual the bad temper man in the whole office, understand his job scope and nv blame him. Afterall, they are both 'good' man to chit chat with.
Fiona been bz the whole day, didnt really have chance to talk to her. She got put down by boss during the discussion. I told her she is doing fine and better than certain people. She was touched! haha In life, we need encouragement to move forward. She was there when i need someone to talk to. She was there to encourage me when i was being 'polished' by Anderson.
Time flies. Counting down to Thursday and I shall call for a 1 month celebration. Woohoo! One month without me! How do you feel? i am sad... Since the day i stepped out from the house.
I dont want to presure you. I am putting in effort to build things up and right and i just hope you can take action too. provided if you still want this to happen.
You dont bring me to meet your friends, (u say u jst want to be alone)
you put single in your status, (coz someone change yr status)
you change all your password, (coz u suspect ppl use yr password)
you drift away from me, (u are just too bz)
you hardly text or call me, (u tired and u got lots to do)
we nv meet, (u want to be alone or rest)
we hardly talk, (u ran out of credit)
when i tell u wat i dont like (u ask me to respect it)
i tell u i jealous (u say wat can u do)....
So when i do that to you and you will say FINE!! u want to play like this rite? Throw tantrum! So me how?
I asked you if i shld give up, and you say up to me...
You know this is not what I want to hear and this is not what i want to know and this is not what i expect from you. i never want to ask too much from you coz i am the one who failed you at first.
but all i am asking is such simple thing, your answer, your action.
I dont know how much more time i have left. I just want to do what I want before it is too late. Forgive me if i push you too hard... forgive me for all the stupid things i have done.. Forgive me for being stupid...
I watched "Couple retreat". I think I understand the whole story very well. Talk to my mom abt behaving in r/s. and I feel i have grown up alot. Atleast mature enuf to make me understand r/s has no right or wrong, give until it hurts coz real love hurts, dont take things for granted and be more open in sharing. There is no I or You but US, WE, OUR...
Love is something so magical. Love is hunger, you thrist for it. Love can make someone cut his own wrist or jump from 17th floor. Love can make you laugh and love can make you scream too. Love is amazing after all.
So share me your love..... & I shall love you in return.. I am still waiting for your return. Love ya.
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