Last day

I wish today is 12th Feb.

Remember my flight was delayed and we had dinner at T3 Jap Restaurant. Then we took photos with the P-zai - (Polaroid Mini).

Did you eat the lolli?

Then I got irritated at the airport with the pigs around. And I was super tired carrying all the food and bags..Then those ppl with no brain block the exit. I ran the luggage over their feet, I was super happy! I hope their toe nails drop off asap and grow in odd shape.

Then Sat is my dad's birthday. We had dinner with bobby and Li Gu and gamble. Lose $3.
Then Sunday gamble again.. Lose $22. Then more...$200.. Jialat! Time to turn back time!!! Sob sob!

I wish today is 12th Feb Friday.

^Lovely&

Bitch the Beach

Port Dickson.
16 Feb to 18 Feb 2010

It's a nice family trip! *Cheers!*

Powerful Air-con *Yes!*
Nice accormodation *Yes!*
Fun time *Yes!*
Good environment *Yes!*
Eat Well, Sleep Well *YES YES YES!*

Check out the latest photos soon! *Wink!*

^Lovely^

Once a upon

Dont know when. Dont know how.
Dont know who. Dont know where.
Only know we started it and last till today - 2010 16 Feb

It is family trip during CNY again! *Woohoo!*
But this year only 5 of us. Bobby got a new job and cant make it for this trip.
For the past year we been going to the same old grandma grandpa places like Fraser's hill, Cameron Highland and dont know where.

Same shit different year! *Laugh*

Anyway, PD this hotel not a bad one comparing to Melacca *shiver*
Melacca hotel we booked 4 days 3 nights and we only stayed 3 days 2 nites.
It was Hell.

Anyway, this year we are here in PD. So far so good and consider a pleasant trip.
We went for breakfast at Old Town Jalan Kuching! It sucks!
Not fast enuf or not enuf man power. No one knows! I almost work there. And we thought we were.
Coz after we order and we go counter and take ourselves.
They still charged us service tax. Real bastard! Ban!!!

Eat again! Lunch time had the chinese sasauge! It's nice! Super nice! *Yummy! Thumbs up!*
Then the CP wonton. Mom likes it coz it is very fresh!
Then the vegetarian chicken. Fried with ketchup sauce! *Slurp*

Watched Korean 2009 grammy award. Till 5pm then head down for a fast and furious swim. 2 laps then started to drizzle! *KNS*
Then saw a group of chinese family. A real 200 pound secondary sch boy (mom say he only sec sch student though he is big) and he arm hock with 2 kids' yellow float. KNS! damn er xin!

then I think his bro or sis. The bro wore a beanie hat crowling ard with a white foam type float. the sis wore undies with swim suit. Grandma where long pants jeans material to swimming pool. The whole swimming pool with the white white stuffs. *Turn off*

Anyway, came bek I bathed with warm water then mom cook again! Wah seh! Cant wait till food is ready! I cant stop eating! Go home you see me fat edi then dun complain! Never ever complain! *Both hand crossed infront of my chest*

Alrite. I got to go help mom cook! will take pic and let you see! :)

*Miss you*
few more days to go to fly bek to SG!

*Lovely*

As light as a feather

Ah Huat still can't make it!
I shall stop waiting for 'Ah Huat'.
I was waiting with my 'Zao Chai Cat' undies. Still never come!
Dont know what 'Ah Huat' really waiting for. Fai Di come larrr!!!

Went out with a thick and bulky wallet with just 2 cards.
Gone home with a flat empty wallet with only 2 cards.

I bring nothing buy my flat empty wallet and half sober brain home. Those who win, walked out with a nice smile. But I special. I laugh! Coz I brighten their nights with no nightmares! *YEAH*

God will give me a star stamp on my soul-saving card when I report myself in heaven! *Love*

Without any heart broken or pain or hard feeling at all! This is weird! (I did try to pinch myself though). Money aint easy to earn but it seems like money is more important to certain people. I am after HAPPINESS and LAUGHTER. not money. Money can make ppl laugh - Only those who gamble and win $. Money nv help me to be happy in this way.

Maybe you are right. If I win alot, I can buy alot of things and make myself happy. But I feel guity for doing that. They will say and keep repeating "You earn SG Dollar leh!".... Then??? SG dollar can afford to lose.

My aunt and her family is the typical 'SGporean' who live in MSIA. They are the rich ppl and they are also the top 5 giam ka na! all stingy. Okay la.. the kids never get to expose to our world yet. Or has yet to reach my stage. I am old! I admit okay. Dont attack me, no more! *Laugh*

But it was a fun evening after all. Baby was busy playing the 2 lion dance tissue cover. All the lion hair all over the place. Just like my money. Gone! *Sing with me! NSYC - Gone!*

$200 for all. And $126.70 for dinner. Ah Huat better make sure my 5mil 4D can win atleast few thousand. Else Ah Huat gonna cham when he comes! Huat Arrrrr! Lu jia pa beh! *Laugh out LOUD LOUD*

Tomoro v go PD lor.. with no money no need to gamble. 3 days 2 nites trip solely for soul healing and resting. *Giggle* Like very cham like that. *Laugh*.

Hope you win alot and BE HAPPY no matter what happen! HUAT ARRRR!!!!
(Ang ang beh hai lang! Gold and Red! Sure win liao! hahahahahahaha)

*Huatly!^

Happy V-Day

What is V-Day?

V day is Very Good day! *For couple laaar*
V day is Vampire's day! *Suck blood*
V day is Valentine's day! *Yeah! the romantice part*

I read an article, cute and funny!
If you ever own a restaurant and just nice CNY and V-day fall on the same day. What would be your menu? 10 course meal with abalone and shark fin? or 2 sets candlelite dinner with roses?

For those who single, would you buy yourself present? Or will you be irritated instead?
How would you celebrate this day if it stands alone? *emo lor sure* *LAUGH out LOUD*

What a funny article.!! *Qian bian*

Well, I had a special V-day this year with nothing. *LAUGH out loud* Still a very good day!
Lose another RM22 bet after 3hrs. *Curse and swear!* Seriously a suck blood day!
okay la as you say, after 2 years of solid winning, this year I give back abit la k... *laugh* *Cough cough* Not very romantic leh..

Mom ask what did I get for V day. Mom remember I used to have lots of present during my birthday and V-day. *Eyes rolling* Errr..... now lao kui edi.. Old edi what! Blairrr!

They ask how come I buy the polaroid cam. How come I keep writing at nite and doodle with the polaroid pic. How come my forehead for few red pimples? I very stress arr? How come I still so thin and when I want to have a bf? When I want to get married and when I want to have babies. I old edi lor.......... *-_-lll*
How come how come, How come you got so many how come de??

And baby's mom ask how come I come bek alone. where is my partner. *Da invinsible man - 98degree*

*Boh liao*
Huat never come!!! Where are you?

*Huatovely!*

I love who you are.

Evil cover my eyes with his smelly hands.
Yish! pui pui pui!

First day of CNY to Second day of CNY AKA Midnite.

Jealousy make me angry.
Evil make me angry and evil stir the fire.

You use different tone when I call while you with someone (friends or colleagues)  else.
My timing still that bad? So I should wait for you to call instead to make you angry? *Eyes Rolling*
You compare me with Maddy and you said how come she so supportive and I am not. *OUCH!*
She encourage him by not asking him much. BUT What did he do to show her he is working for both of them?
Shld I not talk to u and understand abt your life?U can dont show me yr sms talk to me about yr day and plans or bother abt my life, then for what you want me in your life? Trouble yourself? Just want me to tell you encouraging phrases? I respect you. Okay, I will do! 

Anyway, thank you for telling me and constantly update me about yr day since I am so far. Appreciate it alot! I shall not say anything unhappy and whatever that will bring harm to anyone, I shall block it out and practise- forgive and forget.

PROMISE!

And you shall love a person for who she is but not condemning her by comparing her with another woman. I hope you understand how I feel. *Bow*

I am not a bright lovely. Enlighten me please!

^Darkovely^

*Past is past. Let bygone be bygone.*

Happy New Year @ Happy V-Day

Symbolic icon.

Lion dance! The symbol of CNY.
Love! The symbol of Valentine's Day.
Combination - Male lion & Female lion fall in love while doing lion dancing.

Woohoo! *Lovely! as my name!* *grin*

Last nite of gambling game, after so long, i lose RM3. From RM71 to RM20. Then play play play then count RM3. -_-lll

Commercial break.
Ah ma told Ah gong ask him to go catch the chicken for her to cook for tonite reunion dinner.
Then ah gong say: Why that chicken? "pointed out from the window and stare at the skinny chicken which running alone ard the garden". Then ah ma replies: If you dont wan chicken then go catch a duck for me. Then I cook whatever you catch for me.

Ah gong walks out to the garden and make a sumo pose and wanting to catch the chicken. But the skinny chicken ran off very quickly. Then ah gong decided to go out... (well you may think he goes market to buy chicken)

Aft awhile, he back with a bucket of KFC, and told ah ma say there's the chicken.

Then during reunion, they have KFC as part of the dish. And ah gong say out loud to the kids who come bek for the dinner, THIS CHICKEN IS MUCH NICER THAN THE OUTSIDE ONE! Lucky you chicken!. laugh at the chicken outside. LOL

Funny and cute ad. *Love*

This is the best time to catch creative ads. I hope you were here. :)

Love*

^Lovely^

I am afraid NOT

I have learned to say NO.

My ex girls' brigade officer sent me FB msg.
She didnt know abt me and that 'ohmm' bastard's case until yesterday..
She dropped me a msg and ask if there is way to patch things back.
A little lousy. And I dont mean to bring this up during such happening festive going on.
But I want to let you know what is going on, every single little one.
I got to train myself not to be forgetful so you know me well.
Then will u?

Anyway, I want to go lunch edi. My craving for Jello is still super strong! I want! I want!

Sorry that I didnt buy anything nice for you for this V-day. Let me go bek & compensate k... :)

*Hungrylovely*

UP UP AWAY

Flight delayed due to technical problem.
Now are are safe to go!
Heck!*

Safe boarding! Phew*

I experienced a lousy service last nite with Tiger airways. which I've nv been in this irritated mood before.
Well, standard in both service and quality control have dropped drastically.

Air stewardress and Air steward:
- Broken english and bad pronouncation. (China girl, Malay girl and man both shit!)
- Ugly and huge body size (I know the min. standard height. So since you can hardly find a tall in height one, so find a tall in horizontal way rite?)
- look fresh and unprofessional (Isnt it a training? But they like working in a restaurant.)

The aircraft occupied by 98% of Malaysian. Malaysia Boleh! Malaysians are rich! We charter the whole flight to go KL. woohoo!! :) Yeah! yeah!

But...buttttt.... Malaysians are another no brainner! I think they bring back something extra home from SG - Kiasuness! And airline dont know how to control and take action.
Luggage bag! You are allowed to bring ONE luggage bag which is not heavier than 7kg. Everyone take lor! then later no need to queue and check out at custom mah. can straight away go out edi... *STUPID KIASUNESS*

Due to this stupidity the whole flight delayed. Ppl queue'g just to wait for each one of them find space to allocate the bag. And with the broken english, passangers dont understand what they want.
Eg: Keep the emergency door clear. no bag allowed under the seat.
Then tell them straight la and help them to place the bag away.OMG! the china stewardress tell the lady and the lady ask then what you want me to do? then she left. WAT THE!!!!!!!

LCCT!! Another disgusting place!
We need to check bags and let them thru the computerize machine. And the stupid no brainner custom ppl all standing around and chit chating. My bag super heavy and they see and no action. They f'king asshole behind me was staring at me and never help! GENTLEMENT where??? All died!
No wonder my malaysian frens who has alittle standard will never go budget terminal and take budget airline. Or budget airline with alittle class like -Jetstar!

Arrival hall; Exit
Exit is a door for your to escape not for you to block and show your ugly face! Keep clear!
Next time I will bring a bigger luggage bag ang run them down like bowling. Who block my way shall all die! Go to hell ok! Stupid no brainner!

Budget terminal with a no standard system. They should name it 'Standard-Free terminal'.

Irritating!

*Irri-lovely*

11th Feb

Not 2nd of November.
I deserve a big slap on my face! Go ahead and slap me hard babeh!
Wah wah wah! I am super guilty now.

Shit la! How could this happen to me? I think my grouchyness has gone up to my eyes and both are blinded by evil.

I am sorry baby! I dont mean to but .... *speechless*
I deserve the punishment... *turn my ass and let you smack*
*Wet eyes* Can go softer? *Grin*

I hope we can meet on Friday! Let's see tomoro and judge.
After work I will be heading down to meet carol and then go home pack after my things. Gonna be rushing here and there like a mad chicken again.

Surprise Surprise Surprise!!! *Wink*

^Lovely^

Single Day

Funny Wednesday morning.
Irritating Wednesday noon.
Annoying Wednesday evening.
Sweet Wednesday nite.

Funny Wednesday morning.
On the way to work, pardon me, going to work with the traffic flow is always amazing. Life is like a drama. You are one of the actor in life. The producer is the environment surroundings. Props are the elements beside us. As usual to work, train is always freaking crowded. I was hugging newspaper and cooler bag. Today CP Food will deliver the order to our office. As I was listening to 'Maria' this song, oh well, incase you dont know or forget, 'Maria' this song been stucked in my head for awhile and it's about the 200pound beauty show that make me roll on the bed. And while playing the song, an approx 150 pound (god knows 150 pound is how big, but she is big) woman standing infront of me. So scary! I almost burst out!

Exit MRT, a man who in formal shirt and from the back he look quite tall and handsome. But aft a second of him passing by, a very strong 'toilet' smell burst my bubbles. Conclusion is: No matter how handsome how tall how big chest a man has, BO can nv win a woman's heart. While walking up to escalator, a woman tried to cut queue and the way she walks like having something between her tigh. What a funny morning!

Irritating Wednesday noon.
I got to help wrap the oranges. I don't mind to help since I have nothing to do. But I got irritated by ppl in the office. I went for intvw. First time ever in my life being intvewed by an ang mo old lady. Nothing glam nothing special. The place make me feel like another Ronchester Park. (Hey, Ronchester Park aint new at all.)

CP Food came. Everyone not working and I got to seperate them. And the reception aunty got mixed up. I seriously feel like slapping her awhile. I know she wants to help but blind or wat? U are giving me double job!

Annoying Wednesday evening.
Fridge no space to put. I sms you about passing you the stuffs. I guess anyway also we will be meeting until maybe aft CNY. If you are not interested in bring those stuffs home then can always let me know.I can deliver to your house anytime you like. Like I say, my aunt's hse freezer no space and I don't want my thgs all around. I like to give out straight away and settle things fast.

One packet missing. So blame who?

Sweet Wednesday nite.
Thank you for offering to give me a ride. I am sorry that I ended up taking MRT home. Coz you say 6:30pm I dont want to rush you. and till now I have yet to hear from you. Do you think next time you can give me a better timing advice? I know my stuffs are small case, but I do somehow need your assurance.. sorry, my fault to force you. You dont even have time for yourself. but I am thankful for those things that you have made. Like the blog... :P You are not fat nor ugly!
Again, I dont want to be blunt. I hope to support you whevever I can. But I seriously annoyed these 2 days. Do you think I will be seeing you this friday? Sorry. You ask me to be direct. And I tell you, I hope to see you but I am afraid you got things to do. Always the last min things kill. I dont mean to hurt you. I hope to be fair and I rather take time off to chit chat with you and enjoy every single moment that passes by us than thinking if I will be late again. I hope you get me, I feel exhausted.

I come alone, stay alone, leave alone. I am a lonelovely. I am a grouchy bitch these 2 days.. I am sorry x100.

I dont live for myself but many ppl around me. I try to be better and please everyone. I sincerely hope to grant some mercy from these ppl. Just a little I will be happy.

I call mom and complain about this house to her. I want to tell you but I dont wan you to worry. You have more than enuf to worry and you say u hate worrying about me. Thats sad. And I finally throw tantrum and aft that i feel guity now. Shit me!!

I deserve 100x slaps.

*Annoyovely*

Annoying Day

I am sorry.
I got to say sorry before I start to bitch. Forgive me and I think you can skip this page.
I won't blame you or scold you for not being there.

I had a tiring day with the stupid delivery jobs. I didn't have much to do now.
Just waiting for the hand over day. Then I will be free.
The oranges and the freaking big bowl is superb duper heavy. 2 days of carrying that make my back pain.
Oh well, I got to admit I am old and I don't want to be man. Get me? I DONT WANT TO BE MAN!
If I can do what a man does, FML. Everything will be handled by me. Who needs the f'king man ard?
Eve needs Adam and Adam and Eve meant to be together. No gay or lesbian was made at the first place.

Ignore me!

I was annoyed, I am not sure if this is early PMS symptom or before my aunty visit, I got super grouchy.
I am sorry again. I just want to say what I want to say. and I am gonna shoot it out like AK47.
WARNING: To whom with heart problem, you may want to close this window and stop reading. Save your life by hiding away.

Do you think you are alittle irresponsible? Oh well, as compared to others, I find you treat me like a 'spare'.
I am not going to repeat myself again after this, never ever again. You make me feel this way and should I learn and adapt and again do it on you too? If you want to try your 'luck' with other girl, and you think if you two might not work out and you hope to keep me as spare, thanks. Please tell me openly, frankly and wisely. I might coordinate with you.

You won't call when your frens around. You scared they know we still contacting each other? If so, then forget about even sms'g me. Ya. I am glad and I feel so nice when you fetch me to work that day. It was my pleasure to have a free car ride to work. But I feel bad that you got to lie to your frens for not fetching them. Oh well, I can't ask you to fetch them first then come take me.
(so far I can only think of 2 possible reasons.)
Anyway, if you are not ready, then please kindly inform me. So I will only sms you, and never anyhow call you. (dont give me nonsense rational, Action speaks louder!) 

You might want to say I am sensitive or watever 'excuses'. No matter what and how, I feel that shit. Stop telling me that you just want 2 of us to be together quietly or watever reasons. If in this case, I should not bother to share with anyone that I know of about you. I can always go out with them whenever I want to, just to make sure when you call, or when you need me, I will be there. Am I rite? This is the freedom you offer.

You can be very happy driving around to help your fren. But you never think about how annoying it can be for worrying you for nothing.Ya. I remember, you very busy, not even a second to sms. I don't want to be your second mother. You like then you sms, you don't like or you busy, then don't bother. You want to silent your phone and say don't want people to disturb us, then hide at a corner and reply or call, then do what you like and continue them.

Remember this always, relationship is like a mirror. Your partner adapt what you do to him/her. I don't want to keep pushing and I feel very restless and annoying. I am definately not treathening you.

Do what you like and as you like.
I already say what I want to say and that's all.

Don't need to be restricted. If you don't like or not happy, leave it alone. Leave me alone.
Again, I am sorry if I being too rude. World won't stop just because of you alone. I just want to make everything turn out good, I am running out of time. I can be direct and straight forward to share things with you. I just refused to coz I don't want to make us difficult.
WARNING: *I can be real blunt when I don't give a d***.

Tomorrow I will pack the things and I hope you can let me know when you free so I can pass you the stuffs. For the kids I can keep them if it is too much hassle. Just let me know when you free or on the way home I can drop by your place to hand it over. Anytime!

Many many thanks.

*Annoyvely*

Who needs who now?

A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life to be thankful for a good one.

Anyway, cut long story short, make farts clean!
I won! I won nothing but the smartness! (I still havent decided wat is the bet.)
Oh man! suddenly remb my head got knock and before that I can make wild guess right. But now I am not too sure about this!

Oh no!!
Should we have another bet?
This time round I wan a diamond ring! bling bling one c! muahahahaha!!! *Evil laugh*

Then now you can plan to save up for the dinner edi. Bet your wife gonna be happy! *wink*

*laugh* Afterall, I am da smart one!!! hahahaha... *Grin*

*Luckylovely*

You call it madness, but I call it love.

9 6 is sweet!
Saturday was a fun day! Sunday was totally madness!

Thanks for spending precious time with me and I feel so............ Lovely.. *wink* *sing-a-long-song* [Say my name say my name!]

Ronchester Park is awesome! Krish restaurant is cool! My baby is .... gorgeous! *Hooray!!!*
You need me baby! You need me! Without me you cant have so much fun and without me, your life is like a pancake without flour! *Rolling eyes*

Break time News - Hmm...I have pancake craving! *Slurp* *blink blink*

Baby, I feel thankful for having you. I deserve the slap for making you upset and taking you for granted. If you call this stupid, Yes! *Nod* I admit I am stupid. I am not bright. I have lots of fun having you, oh yeah! you need me! you gonna marry me and compensate coz you knock my head! yea! you closed the door without checking. What if my finger was there? What if my hand was there? what if? *Bang!!* my head kena! *sob sob*

*Laugh-out-loud* Yea! drama not karma!

5 more days we gonna be apart for 7 days. and be good! I give you as much as freedom as you like. You want me to tell you and be more open to you then you will do that to me.. *Nod* but..buttt... I have nothing to hide or show... I will tell you whatever that happen asap, but i refused to remember those unhappy things. I chose to filter them quickly.

Anyway, I send out resume and hopefully I will have job soon. If not I will work part time at the cafe first ya. I will learn the operation system while waiting for my research to be done. Atleast I still have $1k to spend. Just got to save and spendless. *keep fingers cross* Hope tomorrow ppl will start to call me and ask me to go to work. *laugh* dreaming leh me..

I rather spend longer time to find a better job than joining CCNP. u think? then I will be in KL for 3 months. If in that case, might as well I go back KL and work. U think? U think?

Alrite... Just want to tell you I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY! THANKS FOR SPENDING TIME WITH ME! THOUGH YOU KNOCK MY HEAD WITH YA STUPID SJV 450A FRONT LEFT PASSENGER SEAT CAR DOOR BUT I STILL LOVE YOU!

Hope this is good enough to convince you to give me ang pow! *Evil Laugh* muahahahahaha!

*Sweetovely!*

Uniquely Ronchester Park

A Place To Go!
Ronchester Park!
I bet $15,000 for 80 ppl. And you bet $25,000 for 80 ppl.

I humblely think I will win. *laugh out loud*
I shall say who ever loss,......... Whoever win, will have chance to raise up voice and be demanding. *laugh*
Be gentle and don't offend.

I Love Krish! Nice place and Nice settings.
I hope we can go there soon... :)

-Krishlovely-

Money Money Come!

Happy New Year! Love is in the air!

My back pain due to stress. After meal, feeling sleepy. Everyday been paisaing. This is weird! Too weird to believe!!
Anyway, this is my last weekend here in SG. Next Friday going bek! Woohoo!!!! *love it* need to go see chinese doc. Urgently need a back rub! *pain*

Last nite was a great nite out with Sheila. We went to Blue Jazz and was awesome! *wink*

Random:
Today Glower client call boss and ask abt headline. Adrian told me and I started to panic. I hate this client, they always go to boss before even come and ask me. May be I am not capable enuf or lack of experience or they jst try boss so much until every small thing go to him. *wonder*
Oh well, let them be. I am leaving edi anyway.

Oh! Vibes didnt get Parkway March Sch campaign. CCNP got it! Who is CCNP? *laugh my head off*
I went for intvw last nite, it was CCNP. and guess what.. This noon client email to us and tell us they are going to do this march sch campaign ads. Is this my fault? i suay la! Coz the moment I took over then things become like this. Sure boss gonna say I jinx! Dammit!

Got another angry thing. "If you wan to cheat or lie, please make sure it is throughout and cover nicely." dont half way leak out any secret and your lie or cheat no longer a perfect one. And u know I am going to scream at you like shit! I hate ppl lying or cheating on me!

Anyway, I maybe soft and petit but dont take me for granted. I have my temper and limitation too. I keep quiet dont mean that I give way. Lie/cheat all the way! Jingle all the way! Make sure no hole all the way!

Next week gonna go TT money home and pack my lugage bag and prepare my air tic paper. The toom is too messy until I dont know where and how to clean it. My back pain until I have no mood to clean.

Oh well, time to go to bed! sleepy! Shit! after meal sleepy. Before meal tummy not well. *roar*

Nite.

*Oldovely*

If that's ok with you

The world needs more love than paper work.

I was glad that you talk to me nicely last nite.
But of coz half way u ki siao agn.
I know what I want but i refused to tell you exactly what i dont feel happy with.
Coz I hate talking about the issue and keep repeating it.
I promise not to hide and let you know the details of my sms/everythg. (if you dont mind to read and help to reply sometimes)
If you want to hide, go ahead.
If want to create the suspicious feeling, go ahead.
If you want to talk behind me or sms behind and keep your privacy, go ahead.
If you are trying to make me die-heart, go ahead. *speechless* *zip*

Dont tell me, u hide first so i hide lor. If you want ppl to treat u like this, then go ahead.
I told you everythg and I have nothing to hide. From the first day until now! Never ever!

When someone ask me if he still stand a chance, I was kinda ......

Anyway, I am very sleepy now.
I need $40 to get something.
I want to go stationary shop.
But I have no money to spend anymore.
Therefore i cant buy nice things for my project.

I need to do part time.
If you busy on weekend, then I will take up a part time to work.
I wish you can buy that cafe and I can run it by myself.
I wan a place people can buy things, relax and eat.
Surrounded by a bird theme. - The real bird-talk business aka jiang niao hua.

Let's see.

9 more days later, I will be away for 1 week.
9 more days later, you will be alone and enjoy yr holiday without me.
Well aft 2 months 6 days you sort of get used to everything already.

Do you still think this year i will still get ang pow from you? *wink* *grin*

Anyway, I hope during this brk you will get back yr sleep and enjoy the ghost's food. yuck!!! *laugh out loud*

Muaks

*Lonvely*

What is going on

What is wrong with the world?

It has been a Light day out today. I had a chic-choc crepe @ canele and take away an Aloha pizza home. Since sheila got to rush off to another place. Well, the chic choc crepe was awesome! I wish you could have it! I took a pic with the Aloha pizza. The paper bag and box are big and ppl ard me thought that is cake. I wish!!!

I love my polaroid cam! Now I can do my scrap book easily. I dont need to go out print though this polaroid film is abit expensive. but it is worth it when you see the pictures laying nicely in the book! I Love it!!!

Then online do my work. My aussie fren is coming to SG and ask if I can bring him around. Well, see how. And I did mentioned about this 2 guys who after me. both got rejected. Well i dont need to explain again. Coz I know my stand and I am clear with what I want. So i told them off when I dont feel right.

What puzzle me off is, how can they be so daring? OMG! I have never seen such thick face SGporean here until this week. I was happy that i have grown up.

The second meeting I attended with my colleagues ard 12pm lunch time. So he asked all of us to go lunch together. Well, client ask to go lunch so we agreed. The place was crowded and I know he intended to hold my waist sort of like protect me from being squash. F rite? Where got such rude ppl around? Lucky my colleagues were behind me and they saw his reaction and intention. and saved my life. Since then never join them for Safra meeting edi. *laugh out loud*

Well, where got such thick face ppl ard. I thought sgporean all shy shy one. For me so chor lor one sure turn this shy group off. But I was wrong. OMG! my colleague told me the guy ask her about me how come I never join the following meeting. I went bcoz her boss not around so I be the guard. I dont handle this client. And what the heck he wants to be so open and ask where's Nicole how come she never come!?!?! Thank god my SAM told him I was only there to help out not taking over the account. And stupid thing is he acted out the client's emo face. *laugh out loud*.

The other one flirt like mad cow disease. Which i think he has brain prob. Oh well, both got rejected kaokao jialat jialat. Both face super thick and they still trying their luck!F'king irritating. Lucky I am leaving and they dont have my contacts.

I never liaise with anyone of them until the receptionist passed line to me. I was like shit in the office. She didn't know what happened. That's why she passed the line to me conveniently when client shouted my name. Lucky it was just office phone and not my handphone.

Anyway, just wonder what's wrong with these guys. Funny thing is when they ask Marcus and say "Is all your servicing ppl all so pretty like Nicole? She is pretty and cute hor. she looks bubbly and cheerpy. Is she attached btw?" Wah sai! He dare to ask such thing during their meeting with Marcus. What the hell man! Lucky I dropped this account. Anyway, I am safe once I leave this company.

Bastard!! My ass cute!
Just grouchy when I heard that. anyway, end story.

*Grovely*

The top 3

Maybe... Maybe Not...

I maybe in top 10
but not top 3.

1. U need time for yourself.
(That includes whatever u need,be it desire or routine).
2. Your work.
(No work no money how?)
3. Your family. They are your close one.
(If anything happen, you are the in-charge)

...In the past...
...marry-go-round was big and I was small...
...In the past...
...Xmas trees was tall and I was small...
...In the past...
...My school desk look plenty of space and I was small...
...In the past...
...It was past...


29 Jan 2010 10:05am
I always want to bring you in the past. Everytime I go alone especially new year they will ask where are you....
* Now you don't need to explain to anyone. Coz you keep 'us' under invincible status. *ouch ouch ouch*

... In the past... These 3 words give me sharp pain. *Poke poke poke*
... In the presense...?
... In the future...?

... That's why i feel like a mistress now.
... That's why you are least interested now.
... That's why you refused to know so much so u can have a longer life.

I am not sure if this is so-call a second chance or second patch back. but one thing I always believe, one hand can not clap and life is within our own hand. We have the right to mold it to our desire of how we want it to be.

Be responsible of what you do, what you say, what you think and what you plan. If you continue to live in the past and never want to make the future better, I am sorry. I give up. truly!*

It is hard to compromise when we both are from 2 different country. One has to be supporter while the other be the driver. I am always the supporter and I need you to be the supporter sometimes. Especially during long weekend holiday. I just hope you can give me this privilege, thats all I ask. If happen we get married, don't worry, they will understand. They will let me stay here with you until 2nd day or whenever the visitation done.

All i need is just this simple thing. I dont see my family often, I need long break to go back else it will be too tiring for me. I need you to be with me (i hope) whenever we plan to go home. I seek your understanding! None of my ex can tolerate this and this is a pain for me. They are not supportive at all.

If not, I will just stay single. Since r/s is so troublesome and no one can tolerate and step back. *Sigh*.

*Pain-Lovely*

Mark this day

With KISS.
A memorable one, I think.

I think I am over sensible or rather sensitive. *frown*
Oh well, not sure if I got wrong signal or message. Oh well, again, ignore.

2 more weeks gonna be CNY. Can I still get ang pow?
Seems to me things changed.
Some people say chicken, horse, rabbit, pig will do well in 2010.
I am not being superstitious but they also say cancer (horoscope), no pink nail polish. It will bring me bad luck.

Oh well, what should I believe in then? I think myself, so-call, if he loves u, he loves u.
Yes, we should prepare umbrella before it rains. But don't you think this is too much hassle?

Today I went for an interview. It took me less than 30mins or 20? Long story!
Anyway, long story cut short, I ask question before the interviewer started to talk and I think that's not what I want then I tell the interviewer I am not interested. Then we end there. *Big eyes shine* *Blink Blink*

I have never tried this before and I feel amazingly daring. *Shiver*
Oh well, I guess my heart feels right and I am very clear of what I want and what I need in life.
So, go for it!
Why should you or I waste time on uncertain stuffs and continue to be fooling around?
Life is short. So go for what you think it's right!

Speaking of which, I had a nightmare and woke up extremely tired. I can't remember what the hell was that.
Maybe during my 'aunty visit', I intend to be more emotional.
Emotional this word is in my weaknesses list.
But lucky my independency helps abit.
I think I just can never rely or take thing for granted for 1 minute.

I am tired. I need holiday and rest and love and food and FUN!

I know I have this silly idea that 'might' make people worry about me.
I think I want to go to an island for awhile. I know I can't afford to stop working, I know it was just a dream yesterday. But I wish to have a chance to explore something different. How ar?

I  am probably too old to try new thing? In fact, I know I can't live without a job if I want my family to move to a new place. And I dont have a job now or soon.
Did I make a wrong move? No I think.
No matter what, how, I will still fork out the money. I just got to do more part time and get more jobs in.
As long as I am happy and enjoy every moment. I don't think with lesser salary will make me cry everyday.
I am sure I can always make something out from there.

I need support and love to get me thru this. *laugh*
Do you think human are all selfish? Do you think if one person has no intention on the other, he/she would help? I guess not even your loved one would, coz he/she has his/hers own prob. So who else left to offer help?

*Lovely-who-has-small-feet*