A day without Paddington Pancake

Where is my Pot of Gold?
Jan 2010 9:30am

A day with my family to Mid Valley, shop eat, eat shop and walk.
I bought a cool water bottle. Going to do something with it... that is so cooolll! *Thumbs up!*

We had taiwanese food for brunch. it cost $160++. Not very nice but the fun that we had together. So consider quite fun. Next time we dont go there, we passed by there before but ended up didnt go in. I still want to have paddington pancake!!! *CRY*

hahahahaha....

Well, how's your day? Hope you rest well.
I still can't figure out what's left in your house. I only remember my 2 bags which supposed send to repair. Oh! Today saw one DKNY bag very nice and super big for me (they say) but i like it very muchie... Bobby say if anything happen i can hide inside.. *Laugh out loud* They really think I so thin.

If you think that's not important, then pls throw it away. i throw quite alot and give away alot too. I wish someone can help me to choose some clothes that dont look nice on me and donate it away. I want to change my wardrobe and i just 'bu seh de' throw my old ones. *frown* I just love my old stuffs after develope my love for them. *wink* I am not the type who easily change my heart.

Well, if you seriously think they are useless items, pls throw away. i dont want to occupy your space so that you can put your things. Of coz, definately and confirmed I am sad. like i say, i am not perfect but i will try make it better.

When we are ready, we will be. Now we dont look like anything, but i will keep my heart for you, always and forever.

Last nite i dreamt abt you, but cant remember what. But surprisingly, MCC supposed to sleep on my right, then midnite i woke up, he was on my left which where I put him initially. :S anything happen to him? *eyes rolling left and right*

Hope tonite i can sleep well with running nose. Else I will have restless midnite agn. Hope you sleep well too, i go bek i pass you some of my meds and the face wash yar... I hope you recover fast fast and be strong again, gain back the sparks in your eyes again.. *Blink Blink*.

Just now dinner we had Deep Fried pumkin with salted egg.! *Slurp* That's super nice and I keep eating it!
That can almost replace my wedges. Cant imagine it... I will go home and try making it and i hope it will turn out nice, else I could have mess up the whole kitchen and waste all the ingredients and gain nothing aft few hours of attempt.

Alrite baby, got to go...

Miss you always and hope to have you by my side every second every min every hour every day every week every month every year for 100 yrs. *love*

Love,

^Lovely^

Embarking journey to the North

1 + 1 on the road


31 Dec 2009 2:30pm Novena Square, Singapore to Bangsar Kuala Lumpur.
Embarking the journey with MCC.
Seat number 16, miss Nicole and MCC.


The journey starts here…
Seat number 4 and 5, Mr & Miss So and So.


The girl looks young and the guy looks mid 20s.
The guy fell asleep very fast in the bus with his half head hanging out. The girl friend’s bag on his thigh and another one below his feet. He is quite tall and the girl very skinny and small size. She’s comfortably reading her newspaper and watching her movie while he was sleeping.


Before reaching the customs, after passport and customs check, before R&R stop, after R&R stop and thereafter. He slept through the whole journey. Can imagine how tired he was and how bored throughout the whole journey.


Random: I smell tuna bread. Yum~


And the moment I saw his half head dangling out from the seat, I felt the pain. The aching that cannot be describable. We used to travel with couch to KL, and often we will watch the same movie or you will read or I will sleep. Then ended up both zzzz until the R&R stop. I wish to travel with you and I wish to have you by myself when I travel, but if this going to be so painful, I rather not. I may be disappointed but I will be more sad if you didn’t even send me off at the station or airport or the departure place.


I would love to see you and have you with me all the time. i know you got to work that's why i was not angry or so. Just miss seeing you...


Received your sms.


31 Dec 2009 17:36pm
No sun here.. Windowns all tinted. Also blocked by buildings so cannot really see much. Miss those times we travel on coach. Dont mind doing it but not so often. I think I'm finishing soon then go dinner with boss for awhile.


I wish we could see the last sunset together and share the very first sun rise of the year together too.. :) That would be so romantic u know. *Smile*


Well, 2009 has gone and now 2010. Let's make new things in this year.


I had a fun night. Went to my grandma's house for count down. Long time since I was young and before I went to tassie, while my grandma and uncle still with us. And now, only 7 of us. *Grief*


Anyway, the fireworks no long that stunning and charming. Maybe we have grown up and I am not longer belong to the fireworks spectator group or eager to see any.. If you are telling me abt bungee jumping with fireworks then i maybe interested. Think i should go penang for the beach game soon. I miss the parashooting game.


Oh well, let's make this year a good year and start to enjoy and treasure every moment that I can. First station would be helping to buy whatever was ordered in sg. then I shall have my own time shopping ard then have whatever I like to eat.. WOW! Paddington Pancake! Pots of gold!! I am coming over now!! woohoo!


If I could have it with you again, that would be so gorgeous!! *Love it*


Guess you gonna have rest enough then have fun during this long weekend. No matter what, pls take care of yourself. take meds and recover soon. I got flu since last nite and my head is pounding pain now.. The air is disgusting. My nose block and one side the nuah jst drip by itself *auto mood on* ..yuks yuks!


Alrite.. Hungry.. drank quite abit last nite and now hungry.. woohoo! Im going to check out new toys too! baby! miss you already.


Love you.


^Lovely^

Give away 2009, Take the new leads

One stop solution: Give & Take

None walking around resentful & depressed


I had a nightmare. I cursed & sweared wen i woke up. *shiver*.
I will never want that kind of life. Disgusting, lonely and shit!!! *pui! pui! pui!*
Dont wan to talk abt it. Let say my last word before i depart my journey to the north & welcome 2010.


2009, a joyful first half year & a much depressing year end rather.


- Feb - We went back to CNY. I was like.. oh shit.. few days without and the moment i had to say goodbye from the gantry gate, i was like... I dont wanna leave u... depressed.heart pain. but i really got to go... *sob sob* Well, very fast will see you again. but that few days without you was HELL. then we went frasers hill. We gamble and you won the most. U cheater. *laugh out loud* and everyone trying to win your money but you were just so damn lucky bastard.. *laugh*. And i got myself a scarf from you. and those were part of my money too.. *evil laugh*


Then we went bek to kl on and off. We hunt for toys. My mom keep scolding me for buying toys.. always say: still small ar? *eyes rolling* Well, we enjoy playing with it.. now im looking for money. Thinking to make my own mini store unique coins. *Cheers* woohoo!!


We didnt travel much this year coz both of us were jobless for a moment and no money. And time fly very fast.. I screwed up the r/s and i irritate you alot. Until the day my uncle passed away you scolded me badly. My heart was totally broken into pieces. I cried until my head pain and sunk to the bottom of my toes, and that's when i decided to tear away the first getaway tickets i bought and put back the clothes i packed.


I drank for the few days. i hate being alone and i hate being mind-free. I squad in the toilet and cry. i covered up so that no one could hear me. Midnite i stood near the window cried and drank. I know I gonna have gastric if i keep drinking like this, but i dun care. I even feel like commiting suiside at a point. *crying out loud* and then i understood why ppl make up their mind & finally jump from high floor or kill themselves with drugs. In one night, i lost everything.


Everyday i go to work & i work hard. Whenever i have chance to drink, i drink. i hardly eat. One meal per day. And my stomach just so guai.. I must say she didnt give me any problem during the low season. i work and work and work. i hardly call home coz everytime i call home, my mom cry over the phn. And you are right, I will start sobing at the other corner. i dont knw what to say and what to do to make them at ease. If she cant reach me or i didnt reply her sms, she starts worrying. Now atleast better.


*laugh* Everyone saw my FB msg during that period, they thought what happen to me. Well, no one knows how badly i was hurt and how much i feel like dying.


Thank God im still alive. I picked up myself with few supports beside.


I plan to buy a bigger house in KL. Once my bro graduates frm school, he can get a job and pay the car loan. then i shall just bear my study load and house loan. Everyone stay together and everything will be save. i still insisted to get my dream house which cost min RM1.8mill. What the heck lor.. Whatever I like, all superb!


Here comes the air tickets thingy. thought if everything goes well, we could have go honeymoon soon. Well, I always guess wrongly. just not my luck. I did my research for next year travelling plan, since this year we didnt travel much, so decided to give you a surprise. I call this, the path for 2 souls 4 hands 2 legs.


Well, since this is no longer a surprise, coz xter knows abt it long ago. She was over excited and she keeps asking me to send her pictures later. she anticipated for my latest blog soon. but well, i put her down.


And given 2 choices. In April i will get my diving license first. so wherever we go, if you like, we can do diving. Feb will start my theory. then mid year will be a short break. So we can save more money for year end long vacation. Innitially we plan to go Japan, korea and other asia country. Given a choice, I would rather explore somewhere not-so-easy to access.. I mean if my pocket allow la..


We either fly to SG - Japan - Taiwan - China - then another country god-knows-where - SG. Do an Asia league tour.
or
SG- Bangkok - (Turkey) -Oslo- small places ard there - SG.. (Which i have more or less argeed. Coz I think Oslo is a damn cool place..) If i could go to these kind of antic places with my loved one, I dont mind to get a short life. Which i think worth it! Of coz if my family can come along, then i choose to die for everyone. Die 100x also no prob.. *laugh* *cough cough* I am not cat lor anyway...


Wedding theme, house decor, kids' name, which month to make baby so that the kids will share the same birthday month with daddy. During pregnancy, i want to take pic. Thats so art and I would love to have an album just showing the progress of the tummy sizes. Of coz taking artistic photos with daddy together. So art neh!!!


Photo theme i also thought about it. Erm.. let's do something uncommon and something fun. I think more like us. *www.oneeyeclick.com* i been searching and keeping photos samples. but well, i thk those things no in need anymore.


Well, all done.


Let's bury them from now on and start fresh... Bury the past unhappy things. Bury that stupid ideas and bury the sadness and misunderstanding and bad experience. Bury the unwanted love. Bury the stupidity, Lies, cheats, beat ard the bush character, easy to get hurt, speak without brain, jealousy, bad time management, attitude problem, bad mouth, insensitive, over sensitive, bad healthy, bad breath, timid heart, unloved feeling. Bury them and... (but i want to thank the above listed for making me a better person today, but i hate having them beside me! *shooo!!boh!!!*


Grant us: more patience, more fun-loving, more sweet tooth, more brain, more good cheeky ideas, sensitive towards ppl's feeling, kind, joy, good health, pretty and handsome, forever young @ heart or out-look, tougher to dig $$$ and wisdom!!!


Dont even think about it and dont bring forward to 2010.
Still got few hours then 1st Jan 2010! Woohoo! Hooray!! hooray!!!
Let's cheers for 2010 and have a better year! *Cheers*.


This year is a bad year for everyone, i hope next year we can watch the last sunset and first sun rise together. I think that's meaningful. FYI, i only do this with my loved one. Not anyone or everyone okie? I will want to spend this meaningful night with you. You might have did it with someone else, but i dont care, that's past and i cant change it. but future, i want to make it better. If you going to do this with someone else while i am away, then pls inform, so that i know I am not that someone special to you anymore. I will be sad but I will be glad that you break my heart in 2009 instead of 2010. I am hoping for a better 2010 to be with you.


Alrite, time to go.. 5 hours journey to the north and time to go home to settle things.
1. Loans, clear bills and debts. money money money...arghhh... forever!
2. laywer doc (this one take forever)
3. Time to go explore shopping mall in kl to see the decor.
4. Check out KL's fireworks! They are always nice and charming but what abt this year? Gonna spend it at the balcony with a nice cold drink. *love it*. but too bad, darling wont be ard.


Love you always & Happy New Year to you and your family, may everyone of you healthy, properous!




^Loving - Lovely^

Time to move on
I miss the olden days


*Stressed*

Body aching *ouch ouch ouch* Sore throat *cough cough*
Go home with sickness. Am such useless bastard! *slaps*
Just because past few days rush jobs and never drink much. *Sigh*

Few more hours is 1st Jan 2010. Feel like there are still things hanging..
Wanted to forget about 2009, but heart just not that. There's still *Qian Gua* behind. Wonder why.

Oh well, time flies very fast. Soon it will be end 2010.

I cant spend the last day of 2009 with you, but i wish 2010 will.
I want us to spend more time together, talk, have fun, play, and explore lots lots lots of other things.
I want to do it with you and spend my life with you, alone. Just you alone. No one else and no others.

Well, please take care yourself and though we dun meet often, hardly talk abt our daily life. What we talk when we meet only the basic general topics. this upsets me but like i say, i dun want to push you further. just hope we will get more closer than before.

Think abt it, you hardly share with me about your stuffs. I guess except myself, the friends around you anyone, everyone know you better than me. I feel sorry.

Okay, let's not talk further. I promise to have better future. I will do it 1st Jan 2010 starting from the first thing in the morning. I, nicole, be my own witness.If i fail to do so, I shall give up all my belonging here and follow what my family has planned. Whatever and anything that come into life. I have 1 year, 365 days, 8,760 hours.

Oh, btw, my mom did ask me abt you agn, i supposed not to tell you, but i think this is manners. She asks if you are coming during CNY. Well, i didnt promise her anything. Coz i did tell her i will fly to somewhere for 3 days.she tot i go with you this is why she asks. Dont worry. I cleared her query just update you so incase she ask.

Alrite. I will leave tomoro 2:30pm bus. Incase anything happen to me during the journey *touch wood* *Choi! Choi! Choi!* please help me to tell them, i have nothing left with me but accident plan with prudential and i think that will help abit. And some money in my bank. If anything *touch wood*, please help me to take care of the kids. i come alone, go alone. oh ya...*laugh* if they need my pic for the big frame portrait, pls check my wallet in my working bag. Plenty of maid's picture there. *laugh out loud*.

During festive season, high traffic on the road and hope the driver drives safely. and i will buy the face wash for you. Know the Fancl foam face wash needs sometimes to create the foam, so decided to buy you the nivea oxygen one. ok? What else you need? pls text me so I can get them before coming bek. I will be bek on Sunday, dont think i will be able to send the thing to you. I expected to reach here ard 7 and by the time the bus reach bedok wld be 8+. Will arrange another time to meet you and pass to you k?

Okay dear, please take good care of your health. Dont over work and please take meds. And pls pls....dun smoke anymore.. I know I cant control you or ask you to do anything, but think about future k?

alrite sweety, good bye and do take care.

Love you sweety.

*Dry Lovely*

I am what ahh...

I look like a Gu Niang
I look like a tekko
I look like can fly with wind blow stronger
I look like secondary school kid body side but with wrinkles on my face
I look si wen
I look gentle
I look like non-malaysian
I look like easy-to-bully
I look skinny
I look with fragile bone structure body

So, what am I?

Today was a super frustrating day. Come to a point I feel like changing job. That's how terrible..
I feel like screaming at those people and walk out from the office and never come back anymore.. That's how bad it was.

Once idiots, forever bastard. These ppl never should deserve such kind treatment. Those kind one should have a raise. Those lazy ass should have gone early.

One colleague, Bryon, leaving this thursday, poor him. Though you are abit sissy and you are abit too much sometimes, but afterall, you are a good buddy to share things with. No doubt you handsome and everyone agreed that statement, but too bad for the girls. Well, sincerely wish you have a better year ahead. God bless that idiot who ask you to leave! *Mad*

Today while having lunch, we were talking about this topic - Men, marriage and religion. Darlene is married and she is eurasian, Malay with ang mo. Her husband is muslim malay. The husband's family was very open minded before their marriage, but after married, things changed. Well, I totally understand it. Coz that's the true color show time. Well, the hubby's family trying to convert Darlene. But she refused too. Then Kenneth was saying, if anyone can find a good man, go get married and settle down. and Fiona was saying, wer got good man now. Simply because she is les. She got hurt badly and eventually turn into les.

haha... ended up with the statement below.

Good man, not bad looking, doing well, with family problem *Worried son's money gone*
Good man, doing well, not bad looking, old *only divorsee know wat they want better*
Good man, doing well, know how to enjoy life *Blur and bad time management*
Good man, doing ok, not bad looking, family only financial support *poor son*
Good man, bad looking, shy. *talk only, no action, sit and wait for miracle.*
Bad looking, rich, always fat and stout *God is fair*
Bad looking, rich, sweet mouth, cheater *cheat girl's money, if not aunties has no entertainment*

Just for laugh.. *hahahahahaha*

I still think my dear dear is the best... good looking, well doing, good man... just that abit weird nia... *Laugh out loud*.

I think I am falling sick. Finally after one year i can finally fall sick kao kao..but why now??
Aiyayak... *body aching*...

Miss you baby.. Hope you get your holiday tomorrow onwards.. Rest more okay?

Gonna miss you when i leave...

*Me, not-so-strong-lovely*

If you have 10, I have 110.

I am still in the holiday mood.. jialat! *slap*

Dont feel like working on monday too much to do. I hate going out now. Going for new brief shld be good, but going out for dispatch work is stupid. And when everyone say this is urgent, that is urgent, everything is urgent. So which one is super urgent then?

3 new accounts coming up. 2 pitches doing now. 3 super babies that need most of the attention. 2 will ring their alarm during festive seasons. The rest just close on eye open my eye and do.

Well, during this hectic moment, all i need is .... YEAH YEAH!! *Claps* Bingo! Snacks!
I got a new snacks. See! see!

Chocolate pudding!! Yo! Baby! i miss you and i miss buying nice snacks with you. but I MISS YOU MORE!!

Chocolate pudding! Chocolate pudding! yea! yea! Chocolate pudding!

Cute features. Cute icon. Cute carton character. Cute cup packaging, Cute color. Everything just so cute........ *love*

hmm... when you give 10%, i give 100%. When you show me how much you care, i love myself more.

28 Dec 2009 4:39pm

Wah wah then you take one extra day la it's okie I'll still be here mah :P

This is so sweet.... *love* aww..... my heart melting.... *eyes with tears* Feel so touched!! I love it! i definately love it!! woohoo!!! *jumping*

I will treasure all these. Like i say, I respect your decision, I love having you in my arm, I miss you more as compared last time. When we are ready, we will live lovingly forever ever after... *sweet* Me likes!!!! *blink blink*.

Love you always,

^Lovely^

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365 days compress to 30days.
8,760 hrs in 365 days.
8,760 hrs in 30 days is 292hrs per day.

I want to go through thin and thick with you everyday. I want to repeat the love i have for your 24/7 x 365 days x 100 years. whatever may occur in a year, I want them to happen in 30days. *Express, kao kao, jialat jialat.*

Love you always,

^Lovely^

Sunshine Sunday!!

Another brand new day also the last day of the long weekend.. Merry looong weekend so fast come to an end... *sad*

How's my baby? How's his last nite shopping? Hope you enjoy it!
Well, last nite i was irriated. My fault. I was totally lose my words and my love was suddenly all disappear.

Well, if you dont take me as your gf, i will be sad. but dont worry. I will not give up to be a better me. Continue to punish me, continue to torture me, me likes.. *laugh*

Not everyone shares the same interest as me and i cant force you to like my way of wat i do either. oh dear.. dun worry.. im not saying im gonna give up.. maybe to stop being so pushy and irritating... i will still continue to do what i should do. Im not perfect or simply perfect, but i want to have a slightly perfect future. Coz you are simply perfect, you deserve more. *sweet* I still want to see your sparkling eyes with passion in everything you do. They look like a pair of talking stars to me. *love*

This is the last thing for this year, your gift. This meant to be yours and i dont want to keep it with me. Please take it away from me.. and... *shouting and screaming noises* Can you hear?

The kids are calling. Can you bring them away too? They miss you and they need you more than me.. *giggle* they so heartless.. Since after I opened up all the present and non suits them, they ditch me. *ouch*. Anyway, like i say 2010 will be a short year for me. Please keep them with you.

I will be somewhere to share the same timing with you, whatever in the past, never will bring forward. Only happy and fulfillment. These are the treasure I have with you. None can robs them away from me & my memory. I will keep them nicely and store them well. Let's forget abt the past and have a better years ahead. I wish you happy and dreams come true in 2010. whatever you wish in 2010, you will get it.

Enjoy this day with your loved one and time to settle your new year resolution. *cheers*. Oh baby! So much to talk abt 2009.. May my wishes come true in 2010 too... *evil laugh* I still want to be rich tai tai..persistence damn strong... hahahaha...

Love ya always.

*Lovely*