Money Money Come!

Happy New Year! Love is in the air!

My back pain due to stress. After meal, feeling sleepy. Everyday been paisaing. This is weird! Too weird to believe!!
Anyway, this is my last weekend here in SG. Next Friday going bek! Woohoo!!!! *love it* need to go see chinese doc. Urgently need a back rub! *pain*

Last nite was a great nite out with Sheila. We went to Blue Jazz and was awesome! *wink*

Random:
Today Glower client call boss and ask abt headline. Adrian told me and I started to panic. I hate this client, they always go to boss before even come and ask me. May be I am not capable enuf or lack of experience or they jst try boss so much until every small thing go to him. *wonder*
Oh well, let them be. I am leaving edi anyway.

Oh! Vibes didnt get Parkway March Sch campaign. CCNP got it! Who is CCNP? *laugh my head off*
I went for intvw last nite, it was CCNP. and guess what.. This noon client email to us and tell us they are going to do this march sch campaign ads. Is this my fault? i suay la! Coz the moment I took over then things become like this. Sure boss gonna say I jinx! Dammit!

Got another angry thing. "If you wan to cheat or lie, please make sure it is throughout and cover nicely." dont half way leak out any secret and your lie or cheat no longer a perfect one. And u know I am going to scream at you like shit! I hate ppl lying or cheating on me!

Anyway, I maybe soft and petit but dont take me for granted. I have my temper and limitation too. I keep quiet dont mean that I give way. Lie/cheat all the way! Jingle all the way! Make sure no hole all the way!

Next week gonna go TT money home and pack my lugage bag and prepare my air tic paper. The toom is too messy until I dont know where and how to clean it. My back pain until I have no mood to clean.

Oh well, time to go to bed! sleepy! Shit! after meal sleepy. Before meal tummy not well. *roar*

Nite.

*Oldovely*

If that's ok with you

The world needs more love than paper work.

I was glad that you talk to me nicely last nite.
But of coz half way u ki siao agn.
I know what I want but i refused to tell you exactly what i dont feel happy with.
Coz I hate talking about the issue and keep repeating it.
I promise not to hide and let you know the details of my sms/everythg. (if you dont mind to read and help to reply sometimes)
If you want to hide, go ahead.
If want to create the suspicious feeling, go ahead.
If you want to talk behind me or sms behind and keep your privacy, go ahead.
If you are trying to make me die-heart, go ahead. *speechless* *zip*

Dont tell me, u hide first so i hide lor. If you want ppl to treat u like this, then go ahead.
I told you everythg and I have nothing to hide. From the first day until now! Never ever!

When someone ask me if he still stand a chance, I was kinda ......

Anyway, I am very sleepy now.
I need $40 to get something.
I want to go stationary shop.
But I have no money to spend anymore.
Therefore i cant buy nice things for my project.

I need to do part time.
If you busy on weekend, then I will take up a part time to work.
I wish you can buy that cafe and I can run it by myself.
I wan a place people can buy things, relax and eat.
Surrounded by a bird theme. - The real bird-talk business aka jiang niao hua.

Let's see.

9 more days later, I will be away for 1 week.
9 more days later, you will be alone and enjoy yr holiday without me.
Well aft 2 months 6 days you sort of get used to everything already.

Do you still think this year i will still get ang pow from you? *wink* *grin*

Anyway, I hope during this brk you will get back yr sleep and enjoy the ghost's food. yuck!!! *laugh out loud*

Muaks

*Lonvely*

What is going on

What is wrong with the world?

It has been a Light day out today. I had a chic-choc crepe @ canele and take away an Aloha pizza home. Since sheila got to rush off to another place. Well, the chic choc crepe was awesome! I wish you could have it! I took a pic with the Aloha pizza. The paper bag and box are big and ppl ard me thought that is cake. I wish!!!

I love my polaroid cam! Now I can do my scrap book easily. I dont need to go out print though this polaroid film is abit expensive. but it is worth it when you see the pictures laying nicely in the book! I Love it!!!

Then online do my work. My aussie fren is coming to SG and ask if I can bring him around. Well, see how. And I did mentioned about this 2 guys who after me. both got rejected. Well i dont need to explain again. Coz I know my stand and I am clear with what I want. So i told them off when I dont feel right.

What puzzle me off is, how can they be so daring? OMG! I have never seen such thick face SGporean here until this week. I was happy that i have grown up.

The second meeting I attended with my colleagues ard 12pm lunch time. So he asked all of us to go lunch together. Well, client ask to go lunch so we agreed. The place was crowded and I know he intended to hold my waist sort of like protect me from being squash. F rite? Where got such rude ppl around? Lucky my colleagues were behind me and they saw his reaction and intention. and saved my life. Since then never join them for Safra meeting edi. *laugh out loud*

Well, where got such thick face ppl ard. I thought sgporean all shy shy one. For me so chor lor one sure turn this shy group off. But I was wrong. OMG! my colleague told me the guy ask her about me how come I never join the following meeting. I went bcoz her boss not around so I be the guard. I dont handle this client. And what the heck he wants to be so open and ask where's Nicole how come she never come!?!?! Thank god my SAM told him I was only there to help out not taking over the account. And stupid thing is he acted out the client's emo face. *laugh out loud*.

The other one flirt like mad cow disease. Which i think he has brain prob. Oh well, both got rejected kaokao jialat jialat. Both face super thick and they still trying their luck!F'king irritating. Lucky I am leaving and they dont have my contacts.

I never liaise with anyone of them until the receptionist passed line to me. I was like shit in the office. She didn't know what happened. That's why she passed the line to me conveniently when client shouted my name. Lucky it was just office phone and not my handphone.

Anyway, just wonder what's wrong with these guys. Funny thing is when they ask Marcus and say "Is all your servicing ppl all so pretty like Nicole? She is pretty and cute hor. she looks bubbly and cheerpy. Is she attached btw?" Wah sai! He dare to ask such thing during their meeting with Marcus. What the hell man! Lucky I dropped this account. Anyway, I am safe once I leave this company.

Bastard!! My ass cute!
Just grouchy when I heard that. anyway, end story.

*Grovely*

The top 3

Maybe... Maybe Not...

I maybe in top 10
but not top 3.

1. U need time for yourself.
(That includes whatever u need,be it desire or routine).
2. Your work.
(No work no money how?)
3. Your family. They are your close one.
(If anything happen, you are the in-charge)

...In the past...
...marry-go-round was big and I was small...
...In the past...
...Xmas trees was tall and I was small...
...In the past...
...My school desk look plenty of space and I was small...
...In the past...
...It was past...


29 Jan 2010 10:05am
I always want to bring you in the past. Everytime I go alone especially new year they will ask where are you....
* Now you don't need to explain to anyone. Coz you keep 'us' under invincible status. *ouch ouch ouch*

... In the past... These 3 words give me sharp pain. *Poke poke poke*
... In the presense...?
... In the future...?

... That's why i feel like a mistress now.
... That's why you are least interested now.
... That's why you refused to know so much so u can have a longer life.

I am not sure if this is so-call a second chance or second patch back. but one thing I always believe, one hand can not clap and life is within our own hand. We have the right to mold it to our desire of how we want it to be.

Be responsible of what you do, what you say, what you think and what you plan. If you continue to live in the past and never want to make the future better, I am sorry. I give up. truly!*

It is hard to compromise when we both are from 2 different country. One has to be supporter while the other be the driver. I am always the supporter and I need you to be the supporter sometimes. Especially during long weekend holiday. I just hope you can give me this privilege, thats all I ask. If happen we get married, don't worry, they will understand. They will let me stay here with you until 2nd day or whenever the visitation done.

All i need is just this simple thing. I dont see my family often, I need long break to go back else it will be too tiring for me. I need you to be with me (i hope) whenever we plan to go home. I seek your understanding! None of my ex can tolerate this and this is a pain for me. They are not supportive at all.

If not, I will just stay single. Since r/s is so troublesome and no one can tolerate and step back. *Sigh*.

*Pain-Lovely*

Mark this day

With KISS.
A memorable one, I think.

I think I am over sensible or rather sensitive. *frown*
Oh well, not sure if I got wrong signal or message. Oh well, again, ignore.

2 more weeks gonna be CNY. Can I still get ang pow?
Seems to me things changed.
Some people say chicken, horse, rabbit, pig will do well in 2010.
I am not being superstitious but they also say cancer (horoscope), no pink nail polish. It will bring me bad luck.

Oh well, what should I believe in then? I think myself, so-call, if he loves u, he loves u.
Yes, we should prepare umbrella before it rains. But don't you think this is too much hassle?

Today I went for an interview. It took me less than 30mins or 20? Long story!
Anyway, long story cut short, I ask question before the interviewer started to talk and I think that's not what I want then I tell the interviewer I am not interested. Then we end there. *Big eyes shine* *Blink Blink*

I have never tried this before and I feel amazingly daring. *Shiver*
Oh well, I guess my heart feels right and I am very clear of what I want and what I need in life.
So, go for it!
Why should you or I waste time on uncertain stuffs and continue to be fooling around?
Life is short. So go for what you think it's right!

Speaking of which, I had a nightmare and woke up extremely tired. I can't remember what the hell was that.
Maybe during my 'aunty visit', I intend to be more emotional.
Emotional this word is in my weaknesses list.
But lucky my independency helps abit.
I think I just can never rely or take thing for granted for 1 minute.

I am tired. I need holiday and rest and love and food and FUN!

I know I have this silly idea that 'might' make people worry about me.
I think I want to go to an island for awhile. I know I can't afford to stop working, I know it was just a dream yesterday. But I wish to have a chance to explore something different. How ar?

I  am probably too old to try new thing? In fact, I know I can't live without a job if I want my family to move to a new place. And I dont have a job now or soon.
Did I make a wrong move? No I think.
No matter what, how, I will still fork out the money. I just got to do more part time and get more jobs in.
As long as I am happy and enjoy every moment. I don't think with lesser salary will make me cry everyday.
I am sure I can always make something out from there.

I need support and love to get me thru this. *laugh*
Do you think human are all selfish? Do you think if one person has no intention on the other, he/she would help? I guess not even your loved one would, coz he/she has his/hers own prob. So who else left to offer help?

*Lovely-who-has-small-feet*

The Magic Word

Yes! I do! *claps*
Yes! I am ready! *blow whistle*
Yes! Let's do it! Yes! Yes! Yes! *uhmp!*

Yes! I am getting married! Yes! You heard me right! I am getting married! *laugh*

I am going to quit my job and prepare my wedding. Yeah! You got it right! that's the spirit!
Feeling great and feeling overwhelmed now. *Wink*

Starting few days need to get myself relax and use to the environment first. I don't need to wake up early and think about what to do first when I get into office. What needs to be done at which hour and what are the deadlines I have for today... *stress*

I can eat anytime, shit anywhere, sleep anyhow. I can bathe whenever I feel hot, I can stare and dream whenever I feel like it. I can pack the house whichever way I think it's nice. I can even do my scrap book when I feel like coloring. *Grin* Life is great!!

Then after atleast 3 days later, sit down and think what wedding theme that we want. Disney? Safari? Garden? Pool Side? Candy? Retro? Kiddy? Dreamy? Need to google for more fun ideas.. Oh yea! Wedding planner? Is it better? How much is the cost? Will they make me more prettier? Sweeter? Lovelier? *Wink*

Since Sentosa is going to have theme park, and they going to have parade with disney characters. What about I be one of the princess for the day? *Smile* I think that would be a very good publicity for us. Maybe we can be famous after that or they will hire me as one of the princess later? *Shiok myself*

Anyway, maybe we should do that before anyone else grab that idea.

After the theme, here comes the dresses and gown part. What type of color and shape suit me? What kind of tux that will make the groom looks more gorgeous? Is A line nice or short one more cute for me? Or should we try a long one with long tail? Still in trend? What color gown that suits me best? I am dark and I can't afford a dull color. So what now? *confused*

I am short and I don't want to wear too high heels. Where to get nice shoes? If the heels too expensive then one time off abit not worth it. So I should go for the normal yet elegant type of heels. Can wear to function or ball or whatever in the future. Just hope it wont spoil so soon. *laugh*

Then, what's next? Wedding photos. Wow! big thing! Google what kind of pictures we want which is something unique and fun! *Smile* Should we wear gown during pre-shoot? Outdoor where should we go? Wedding gown photos in studio? Er....how? I love seeing nice pictures, I need to spend more time on this. Cant waste any money on this but to make it fulfilling. *love*

Oh then wedding banquet. Where? How many guest are we inviting? How should we have it? Typical chinese or western or mix or how? Hotel? Restaurant? Cafe? Beach? *laugh out loud* What about Kallang longkang? Can we do something like beach wedding dinner? Windy and cosy. but if rain hor..*touch wood*  then we will have to think of something. If it really rain on the wedding day, I will definately push all the blames to you. Blame on you that you didn't supply enough and God says you are stingy! Get it? *laugh* so go work on it and set me more budget! *Salute* Yes Madam!

Then wat else? Invitation card? Wedding Car? Hen's party? Bachalor's Party? New house and deco? Are we not going to see each other before the wedding day? Church ceremoney in the morning? ROM venue? Guest List? Wow! catering or whatever idea! *Eyes rolling*.

*Cold sweat* This is enough to keep me busy for awhile. Doing reseach and arranging dates for viewing, food tasting and choosing materials need tons of hours. This is too stressful! I need more budget!!! *scream*. And I need more support and love! 

Sort out paper for invitation card. Printing. Arhh! go home I show you how much research I have done and what materials I have bought. Maybe I can do my own invitation card. hand made should be something unique and memorable. Oh ya! guest book to sign off. Wow! how dare me!

Wow! This gonna make me busy and my tai-tai'ship is so far so good. People around me gonna be jealous!

Alrite. Time to wake up. *Alarm rings*

It's just a dream.

Yawn

AM NOT READY.

CNY is here around the corner. and I am not ready for it.
I am worry it will be a 'come & go' type. I need a longer break.

*Laugh out loud*
I am sorry. I cant help it.
If you know me for long, you should know I cant pronouce V and W and twist my tougue like no body business like the RRRRRRRrrrrrrrrr sound. Lucky I am not Indian, else I will be the odd one. Ah Huh! I am not saying I am not now. I am now the extraordinary one! *Wink*

Anyway, this company is hiring call "Wiz Werx", which has the most F'king Irritating online application ever on earth. If I got the job, I will have bloody hell hard time pronouncing my own company name. So I decided not to apply it. *Laugh out loud*

Well, now adays lots of jobs go thru recruitment agency. Seriously wasting time. *Sigh...* anyway, jst do what I can. Now I am looking for client side job. Guess that's what my heart feels like and I think I will jst work towards what I have planned for this year. A brand exec or any along this line would be fine for me.

I am so looking forward to the long week holiday. I wont get paid but I think I long for one after all incidents happened. It feels like it just happened yesterday.

Alrite. I found something interesting. Will play with it and post it up soon.

Keep a look out for the new invention soon!
Oh yea! got a note from someone. Say my blog's pic very nice. I think this person is froom HK. :D I am glad that ppl do read my blog and I am glad it is still alive. *Yeah*

Keep it up!

Btw, will have more pictures soon. Gonna go travel sooooon..yes! yes! yes!

.Halovely. (Happy+Lovely)

Life cycle

Relieved & Reset & Restart

I tendered this morning. Boss shake head and I grin. Relieved.
141 sercon not taking me. Reset.
This thursday I am going for another interview. Restart.

Life cycles every (average) 2 years.

Time to pick up and go hunt again. The most tiring thing to do in life.
How I wish I am now a primary school student. *Dream*

I am risk taker.
I don't have a job.
There are ppl counting on me.
I am rebelious.
I very tired.
I want a life.
There are ppl counting on me.
I am restless.
I need love.
I want to settle down.
There are ppl counting on me.
I am still a woman.
How I can going out without spending single cent?
How I can be the 'open palm' instead?
How I can be the spoil brad?
How? How? How?

Life is cruel.. I wish I am the youngest and born with a silver spoon.

.Tirovely.

Awesomeness

Life is awesome with you!
Just you alone.

Life is tasty with you!
Just you alone.

Life is sweet with you!
Just you alone.

No others.

24 Jan 2010 6:40am
B ah bb I'm home now. Managed to clear alot of work. Tomorrow or latero no need to go back office. Can sleep in and work from home edi. Sigh miss you. Dunno if we are staying together it would be nice or bad :(

Sorry bb, I know. Even my parents worry and dunno what is happening to me. All I hope is you trust me. I just want a future with good life later. now work hard nvm. Sometimes I think I'm selfishh to wish you will be there when I come home... But then I know you can't sleep well waiting for me so I'll feel bad and cannot work hard also... Sigh

24 Jan 2010 2:51pm
I just woke up. Reading your message again what's the only way for you to stop worrying? Me to leave totally? If that helps than maybe I will do that.

I'm awake fully didn't sleep well cause of what you said. I also feel very far apart from you and it hurts. I got problem now also u dun talk to my friend. I upset with you also I dun share with my friends. You still confide with francis... I'm alone. I worked hard yesterday so today hopefully we can go east coast take picture. But after what you said yesterday I feel down and dunno if I want to ask you out.

Maybe what you say is not clear or maybe I dun feel safe also. Anyway you want to go beach? We can take photo and have dinner there. But must let me so some work at home first. Pick you at 5.

I think there are few things I want to clear here.
Before you think or act futher, please always remember, dont ever act like a kid and dont ever act irresponsible. I'm not secondary and I am not a replacement where you think you can anytime kick me off or call me in. I am a human and I am just a girl who needs love.

1. I will continue to worry about your safety no matter what even if I'm not staying with you, I will still do so.
If you think this will distract you from working hard then sorry. I will just stop. I don't want and I don't mean to interrupt you or draw your attention away. I dare not to sms you or call you when there's no reply coz I worry I will distract you. Let me know what works best for you. R/S is not about you or me alone. It is about US, we both!

2. There is nothing to talk about or complain about to your friends. I hardly talk to them coz they have their own life. Of coz there's need, they will prompt me. If not they will still go bek to you. We hardly meet and everyone knows we have 'broke up'. So what's there to talk about me and u? Max is they will tell me about your new gf. Where you bring your gf to and when you go to your gf's place. This your creation and you should feel proud of what you have created. This is aint fair to me FYI. If one day ppl tell you they see me dating with another guy out there, should you believe them or me? When you make up story, have you thought of consequences? Or unless those things are truth. Let's get over it.
I don't think there's anything I want to complain about us.

3. Working hard to have a better future is a good morale. But who would promise you to bring you a better future or better life in the future if you work hard? Do you know what would happen to you tomoro or even an hr later? Answer is NO. Treausre whatever you have and live everyday like your last day. No matter how rich you are now, you can't bring all treasures down with you. U get what I mean? All I long for is happiness and fullfillment.
When my hearts tell me to do. I follow my heart. That's how I persue my happiness.

4. Why don't you feel safe? You feel something? You feel either you can't give me more or you think I have someone else? The truth is Yes. There are few ppl after me. But I am NOT bloody hell interested. Coz I am still waiting for you.
Remember I told you once during the very first month I shifted out? No matter what do not doubt my love to you. Do you still remember? If you don't remember, please read back my old blog pages. Do not doubt what I say and If I can't fulfill it, I will not anyhow throw out from my mouth. U have my word.

Anyway, this year CNY will be something different. I wish you will have a few days break so that we can go holiday. But I doubt you can now. Just enjoy yourself. I think I will be away for few days. Time to do soul searching.

Enjoy your week ahead.I had a nice night with you though it's just a short hang out.
Be able to kiss you is my pleasure. Kissing you on your lips is something I crave for everyday. I want to feel the tenderness and softness of your lips again.

Well, wish me luck for tomoro's tendering and good news for interview or 141sercon or whichever.

*Lovely*

With me..

Where fun starts here!

I love my new polaroid camera! I think it is worth it coz I am having fun with it now! Old time has gone and now new thing has just arrived.  I am so going to play with it during CNY.

Afterall, I am just not so ...... I know how to keep memory and generate more! Gonna buy a marker to doodle on the photos and start my new sketch book!

Oh ya..what shall I name this cam? Pink and bulky... erm.... Pink Bull?

I am going to name my sketch book, The fun starts here and everyday with more memories.

Awesome I think. *smile*

*Pink Bull-Lovely*

Capture them!

The gadget that I craving for.
Polaroid Camera - The fun that stays in your pocket..


I saw this pamphlet @ my house. And my eye was stuck when I first saw it. I remember when you packed your room you had one. I was so jealous that you can afford to get one when you were young (not sure how old but by judging from the 'kuan' of the cam, it looks old) *grin* Don't slap me! *hands up*

Then I decided to get one since I want to print photos to make the photo book. Not sure if this is worth it not sure how long it can last not sure if I should or the sony printer better or both also don't buy. Without thinking much, I just go for it. Sometimes life dont need a second thought.

Fun is all around. Think twice when you need to spend a big sum, else, why wait?
I wont have second life and who knows what would happen tomoro. Let's capture the fun and enjoy while you can! *stress free*


I know I anyhow. But I need something to perk me up.
I was worry about you at home and not sure if you are doing okay.
Well, if this is going to continue to be like this, I think it is fair that I give you more freedom.

23 Jan 2010 3:39am
B ah bb I'm finally home. Tomorrow 10am must go work again. Sigh. The kids there for me also no use if you aren't there. Anyway I want to go bathe and zzzz. Sorry earlier on very grouchy I turn off my phone and just listen to music while doing work. Muaks. Sweet dreams.

Yes I want to take photos with you. But I want our life to be private cause it's somewhere I can escape and be alone without interruptions and just be with you alone. Good night my lovely. Sweet sweet dreams.

Thank You! You may think you want your life to be private, truely. It may sound 'mistress life' to me. When you need me, you call. When you are busy, let's talk later. God knows what happen to you there. Well, yeah, freedom you were saying. Yea..I know. I will do what I think it is right. I will take care of myself. I will be independent and find solution when I need one. Then how can I fit you into my picture? Arent relationships all about being together and your partner is the main priority?

Yea, you need to work and you need to earn money. No money no life. True! I agree totally. But if money is so important until it over-shadow your life, then think twice. Dont be obsess by money! Money creates temptation. Love is around you to fill your life. Happiness to keep your life moving. Enjoyment is what you crave for daily.

Maybe you are right, I am desperate. Well, I quit without a job, how desperate can I be?

Anyway, take care of yourself and sorry I can't be around you often. You have enough of hassle everyday, I dont want to be your extra burden. and I will take care of myself which I am doing it everyday.

My mom upset because I suffer alone here. She blamed the man who threw me here. Well, I told myself, I am glad to be here. I thank him for asking me to come here. If not I wouldn't know you. I am glad to have you...

Enjoy your day and remember to fill your stomach and keep warm. Dont fall sick!

*Funovely*

Don't Matter

One Hand Slap
Two Hand Clap

I am tired and exhauted. I need a life.
I don't really have working mood so far. The moment I step into the first day of 2010,
I have decided to settle my life down.

I don't force you to think alike. I won't ask you to do what I like. Like I say, no one will do things to please me. None force to do chores and your freedom is yours and no one can grab them away from you.
Money is important. But happiness is more crucial.
Money can't buy everything. But without money is hard to survive.
U just got to know what is your limitation.
I think with my salary, I can still manage.
I chose to have a better life, I spend less if I have tight pocket.
I chose to have happiness, I enjoy the companionship. As long as we are together, no matter what we do, where we are, we will be happy. Because we are together sharing laughter.

Don't Matter.

It is not about the place or people around you, but the partner of yours brings you laughter.
Therefore, I have only one wish for this year. Family. Raj and Maddie is a big sample to me. They dont earn extremely lot but they are happy. They owe more than what we both have. I am sure we can do better than them. Just the matter of compromising.

Since we are not thinking alike, life still goes on. As long as you are happy, then I will be happy too. *grin*

Tomoro i want to go check out the poloriad camera. I always wanted to get one. I think it is time to go for it before CNY. So I can start another album soon! *Yeah!*

Since you dont want to take pic with me, show pic will let ppl know about us...Then I do something else. I dont like the now us. Do I have a choice than accepting it and jst like that?

Life is aint fair after all. No one is going to what I like.
We flirt to have a better day.

Dont Matter.
*Oldovely*

Superman

Let me be the superman you always wish for. Let's dare our dream with dreams.

I LOVE MY INSTINCT.

I am in-love!
with the smell, with the texture, with the touch, with the memory, with the special thought.
I got the superman note!!! But you say only 1 with a proposal note. Where izzit exactly? *puzzled*

I was thinking about superman.
I was thinking about you.
I was thinking about the superman tin can.
I was thinking to pick one and have a better night.
I was thinking how much I miss you.
I was thinking if it is better to stay this way.
I was thinking do you still want me and how much.
I was thinking .......

I don't love the way we are now.

*Lovely*

想要有个家

TIRED.

Realised few days I didnt blog. Don't even have time to eat and shit.
No food No shit! Hassle Free! Go Green!!! *cheers*

Imagine that's the tagline for anti-food. Am sure the impact will be huge. *laugh*

Tired.

I wanna go home.
I wanna have a home.
I deserve a home.
It is time to own a home.
Right time to settle in.

After I quit, I will go on a L.O.V.E.L.Y.L.O.N.E.L.I.N.E.R travel plan.
Time to use up the air-ticket and as planned. but will u be joining? *-_-???*

I just want to relax and rest and enjoy alittle.
I wish I have a home. A home that plays jazz music with dim lights and cozy feel.
A home that feels with love and happiness. A home that you will feel alone.
A home that makes you feel loved and full with passion and curiosity.
A home that filled with laughter and fun time photos.
A home that only 2 of us. Just the 2 of us, with nothing else.

A home that belongs to just both of US - you & me.

^Tired + Lovely = Tirovely^
meaning: A tired lovely, still lovely.

*Giggle* *Laugh* *Burst out laughing* *Laugh out loud* *Laugh* *Giggle* *Smile* *Wink*

我的爱很大

你知道我有好多好多爱

它们从来都不只在一个地方
爱造物主 爱夜 爱书
爱周围需要帮助的人
还有那只猫和路上流浪动物

它们要分给很多人

有时我不明白为什么
你和别的男人不一样
可以用最让我自在舒适的方式
爱我喜欢我
 
难怪我会这么喜欢你

因为你的爱也跟我一样
可以很大很大
因为有你，我的世界才变的更有意义

Give-A-Way or Give-Away

Count me in or exclude me forever.
Count me in from the start. Exclude me from the begining, forever.

I think I started to be pushie again. I am sorry. I push myself to go further in every aspects. Yes, I am having hiccups with the stupid career. Which I am trying hard to crowl over and make it happen again.

I am now planning to run stationary shop and I wish to make it come true. I dont know how to share with you coz you have been bz. and we dont have time to talk. When we talk, i dont want to bored u with business talk agn before i have a more concrete research. That's why i was angry when you always plan things alone. Well, i dun want to nag or complain. This will only worsen the whole situation. I do, sincerely hope things will get better soon.

By saying this, I dont mean to just sit down and ohmmm...till miracle happen. I knw what I want and the main issue is I dont feel I am important to you. Last minute plans and plans that you run all alone! You need time for yourself, ok, go-a-head. Your parent miss you and you need to spend more time with them. Yes! go-go-go! You got lots to do, you need to settle them! Alrite. Let's continue your work.

Then?

No forcing.
Just plain discussion.
I will understand you, your feeling if you share to me more. I did mention to you when i first met you, i dont need alot of freedom. I need someone to control me so i sense your love and care abt me. I am fine if you dont let me go out and ask me stay home. I know you care. Well, thanks for the extra freedom. I will keep them in my superman can, emergency i will use it. I will still behave myself, truely.

And I think you have hard time juggling your time. Your work, your family and something else. I basically not in your plan. *laugh* Why I said so? *laugh-out-loud* Think about it, I dont know. I am just another weekend ascot. *laugh* *laugh* *laugh* Did you make me different from others? *laugh* Ya! I am stupid!
You are right. *laugh*

-miserovely-

Putting on the mask

Not who I am.
I am not real. This is not me.
I am not me. I am like a blind fly.
I am not happy. I am in a mess.
I am so emotional. I am like a safe box, things in hardly out.
I stop complainning. I think world has more things to do and world evolves quickly.
No stop and stare case. Never.

No one is going to please me. No one is going to do what I like.
No one is going to be slave for me. No one is going to love what I do.
No one is force to do chores & No one to be there when I need help.
Coz they are not paid to do so.
Afterall, l.o.v.e.l.y a.l.o.n.e feels l.o.n.e.l.y and be the l.o.n.e.l.y.n.e.r
(funny)

I shall let go coz I think this has been too hard for me.
Whatever have promised in life, all over, all done.
My dream is one step closer now. Thats all I know.
Should I let go my high pay job to do what I like? (I have ppl counting on me)
Or should I persue my dream no matter what happen? (I still have ppl counting on me)
What is the long term deal? what is worth for the wait?
My life has been hard coz I have been living for everyone.

What am I thinking now? Where is my thinking hat?

^Lo.vne.ly^

Let's go to bitch road

Speak out!

I need a shoulder.

Today is a black Friday. Oh well, nothing fun to shout about this, nothing new since the very first day until current moment. So we shall skip this and I keep what had happened today in mind, reme,ber what should I do and what to do best to secure my future.

The more obstacles @ work, the closer journey to my dream. Yes. Thou shall not give up easily. Yes. Definately. But not when I am all alone and without single support. Anyway, I will do what I can and speak out.

Anyway, let's not think about the past. Let's look forward to my new assignment. I need help man!!! I got my assignment at this time and how would I react when I so super tired. I am blank!

My weekend burn just to think about this assignment and office work. Help me!!!! Out of a sudden I just hate my life. *laugh*. I just dont wish to do something so ordinary. I want my dream to come true! Eagerly!
I wish Im only 20 now.

^bitchy-Lovely^

When you are happy

And you know you clap your hands.

Yeah! Last nite send in resume and this morning got call in and ask for interview. It's fast! *brilliant*!
I was surprise that they will call me for interview. 141 Sercon.

I think I have grown up abit but the obstacles are still plenty. But this has never stop me from searching my soul.. I wish I can somewhat settle down this year. Life is hectic when you keep runnng around without a proper place to live in.

*Yawn* Tired life I have since last year Aug. Hope aft CNY things will start to fall at its place nicely. *Smile* Looking forward!

How's my baby doing? Working here everyday after meal sure sleepy and everyday wake up early go work then worry the whole day if there will be anything wrong. And becareful of what I say and it might cause havoc to the whole world.

Very tired of preparing myself to the war. Well, keep my finger cross tight tight, i hope they will consider me and i can learn something new this year. i promise to learn harder and try 101% more than the usual one. Please pray for me.

Tired, sleepy and exhausted. It can never be enough though you have 8 hours sleep everyday.
I want baby to have more rest and I also hope baby can spend more time with me. Contradicting rite? *nod*
Yes! I am. But I just want to tell you.

I love you and never change.

Love you. ^lovely^

Love begins with a single word

I told you so
Suppose I called you up tonight and told you that I loved you

And suppose I said "I wanna come back home".
And suppose I cried and said "I think I finally learned my lesson"
And I'm tired a-spendin' all my time alone.

If I told you that I realised you're all I ever wanted
And it's killin' me to be so far away.
Would you tell me that you loved me too and would we cry together?
Or would you simply laugh at me and say:

"I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you had to go.

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand?
Would we get that old time feelin', would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began?
Would you tell me that you'd missed me too and that you'd been so lonely
And you waited for the day that I returned.
And we'd live in love forever and that I'm your one and only
Or would you say the tables finally turned?
Would you say:

"I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you have to go.

Will you do so?
Yes I think you did..

But i still love you.

I decided to leave my burden in the office. Finally released and now I am bek to the normal life again. Well, I just got to look for an alternative way to sustain my PR and constant month income for me to spend.
I am glad you love what you are doing for now. I have different view for this year. and you please keep it up!
i wan you to love what you doing! With passion and wisdom! *cheers*

^Lovely^