Life is awesome with you!
Just you alone.
Life is tasty with you!
Just you alone.
Life is sweet with you!
Just you alone.
No others.
24 Jan 2010 6:40am
B ah bb I'm home now. Managed to clear alot of work. Tomorrow or latero no need to go back office. Can sleep in and work from home edi. Sigh miss you. Dunno if we are staying together it would be nice or bad :(
Sorry bb, I know. Even my parents worry and dunno what is happening to me. All I hope is you trust me. I just want a future with good life later. now work hard nvm. Sometimes I think I'm selfishh to wish you will be there when I come home... But then I know you can't sleep well waiting for me so I'll feel bad and cannot work hard also... Sigh
24 Jan 2010 2:51pm
I just woke up. Reading your message again what's the only way for you to stop worrying? Me to leave totally? If that helps than maybe I will do that.
I'm awake fully didn't sleep well cause of what you said. I also feel very far apart from you and it hurts. I got problem now also u dun talk to my friend. I upset with you also I dun share with my friends. You still confide with francis... I'm alone. I worked hard yesterday so today hopefully we can go east coast take picture. But after what you said yesterday I feel down and dunno if I want to ask you out.
Maybe what you say is not clear or maybe I dun feel safe also. Anyway you want to go beach? We can take photo and have dinner there. But must let me so some work at home first. Pick you at 5.
I think there are few things I want to clear here.
Before you think or act futher, please always remember, dont ever act like a kid and dont ever act irresponsible. I'm not secondary and I am not a replacement where you think you can anytime kick me off or call me in. I am a human and I am just a girl who needs love.
1. I will continue to worry about your safety no matter what even if I'm not staying with you, I will still do so.
If you think this will distract you from working hard then sorry. I will just stop. I don't want and I don't mean to interrupt you or draw your attention away. I dare not to sms you or call you when there's no reply coz I worry I will distract you. Let me know what works best for you. R/S is not about you or me alone. It is about US, we both!
2. There is nothing to talk about or complain about to your friends. I hardly talk to them coz they have their own life. Of coz there's need, they will prompt me. If not they will still go bek to you. We hardly meet and everyone knows we have 'broke up'. So what's there to talk about me and u? Max is they will tell me about your new gf. Where you bring your gf to and when you go to your gf's place. This your creation and you should feel proud of what you have created. This is aint fair to me FYI. If one day ppl tell you they see me dating with another guy out there, should you believe them or me? When you make up story, have you thought of consequences? Or unless those things are truth. Let's get over it.
I don't think there's anything I want to complain about us.
3. Working hard to have a better future is a good morale. But who would promise you to bring you a better future or better life in the future if you work hard? Do you know what would happen to you tomoro or even an hr later? Answer is NO. Treausre whatever you have and live everyday like your last day. No matter how rich you are now, you can't bring all treasures down with you. U get what I mean? All I long for is happiness and fullfillment.
When my hearts tell me to do. I follow my heart. That's how I persue my happiness.
4. Why don't you feel safe? You feel something? You feel either you can't give me more or you think I have someone else? The truth is Yes. There are few ppl after me. But I am NOT bloody hell interested. Coz I am still waiting for you.
Remember I told you once during the very first month I shifted out? No matter what do not doubt my love to you. Do you still remember? If you don't remember, please read back my old blog pages. Do not doubt what I say and If I can't fulfill it, I will not anyhow throw out from my mouth. U have my word.
Anyway, this year CNY will be something different. I wish you will have a few days break so that we can go holiday. But I doubt you can now. Just enjoy yourself. I think I will be away for few days. Time to do soul searching.
Enjoy your week ahead.I had a nice night with you though it's just a short hang out.
Be able to kiss you is my pleasure. Kissing you on your lips is something I crave for everyday. I want to feel the tenderness and softness of your lips again.
Well, wish me luck for tomoro's tendering and good news for interview or 141sercon or whichever.
*Lovely*
