I wish I was a tai-tai. Married a rich man and have a happy family.
Or
I born in a rich family. 26 year old be CEO of the company.
Either of this would make my life easier. Atleast I know what is luxury all about. And I dont need to worry so much about tomoro how to pay rent and phone bill.
Life sucks when you keep worrying. There's no end until the day you got to say bye to the world. which is when no one knows. Anytime from this second.
Should I continue to dream big to have the pancake cafe?
Or should I continue to plan to go bek to Aussie?
I notice something. I will start to think alot when during my jobless moment. sigh..
We discussed this before. We supposed to migrate to Aussie later. But then dont know how we ended up something else and if im not wrong, I think you dont want to go there anymore.
Anyway, my mom did say If I want to go, then go. But I feel old and tired. Walking alone, start a new life alone, crying alone and no one understand how I feel being alone out there. Very depressing!
When I first came to SG, I have no friend. My colleagues are my friends but we dont hang out. So after work i will go home straight. The next day wake up then go work again. Everyday the same until I finally have some friends whom I can talk to.
Then money. First few months suffer alot and try to clear debts. and once jobless, I will need 2-3 months to recover. Depends on how much I can save. Im super tired and I kinda a hate to repeat it again.
Oh well, I really wish to settle down somewhere where I think finally I can call it Home. Tired of floating around like a nobody/s child. Sad.
Time to go to bed. Better not to think so much.
Good
*Lovely*
