I am in-love with my blog again...
Since a year ago i stopped blogging. due to, tons of reason,same shit different day, work work work. But since after your birthday and lots of hidden reason, out of no choice, i blog again.
Monday always the most sickening day to have for the week. Today surprisingly everything go smoothly. Other than the usual case kena questions till up side down, rushing boh liao jobs, gossips with nonsense, chasing dead deadlines etc nothing special. 7th week in office but feel like 7 years.
Went for production with Marcus and Anderson. Marcus still sick, he is with his 'sexy' voice now. Which i am super happy about it, coz he is so irritating. He jst cant talk to me properly, always must tease me to get things done. So hard to get him to talk and i got pissed when i talk to him after 10 seconds. Anderson as usual the bad temper man in the whole office, understand his job scope and nv blame him. Afterall, they are both 'good' man to chit chat with.
Fiona been bz the whole day, didnt really have chance to talk to her. She got put down by boss during the discussion. I told her she is doing fine and better than certain people. She was touched! haha In life, we need encouragement to move forward. She was there when i need someone to talk to. She was there to encourage me when i was being 'polished' by Anderson.
Time flies. Counting down to Thursday and I shall call for a 1 month celebration. Woohoo! One month without me! How do you feel? i am sad... Since the day i stepped out from the house.
I dont want to presure you. I am putting in effort to build things up and right and i just hope you can take action too. provided if you still want this to happen.
You dont bring me to meet your friends, (u say u jst want to be alone)
you put single in your status, (coz someone change yr status)
you change all your password, (coz u suspect ppl use yr password)
you drift away from me, (u are just too bz)
you hardly text or call me, (u tired and u got lots to do)
we nv meet, (u want to be alone or rest)
we hardly talk, (u ran out of credit)
when i tell u wat i dont like (u ask me to respect it)
i tell u i jealous (u say wat can u do)....
So when i do that to you and you will say FINE!! u want to play like this rite? Throw tantrum! So me how?
I asked you if i shld give up, and you say up to me...
You know this is not what I want to hear and this is not what i want to know and this is not what i expect from you. i never want to ask too much from you coz i am the one who failed you at first.
but all i am asking is such simple thing, your answer, your action.
I dont know how much more time i have left. I just want to do what I want before it is too late. Forgive me if i push you too hard... forgive me for all the stupid things i have done.. Forgive me for being stupid...
I watched "Couple retreat". I think I understand the whole story very well. Talk to my mom abt behaving in r/s. and I feel i have grown up alot. Atleast mature enuf to make me understand r/s has no right or wrong, give until it hurts coz real love hurts, dont take things for granted and be more open in sharing. There is no I or You but US, WE, OUR...
Love is something so magical. Love is hunger, you thrist for it. Love can make someone cut his own wrist or jump from 17th floor. Love can make you laugh and love can make you scream too. Love is amazing after all.
So share me your love..... & I shall love you in return.. I am still waiting for your return. Love ya.
