The 1st day-
Feeling fresh & thk this is somethg diff. I don't need to worry about anythg @ work but end month. I feel cheated before the day I left home to KL.*
The 2nd day-
Finally take off & start my holiday. You don't trust me or still insist I'm hiding* I can't do anything to make you trust me & yet you need to act to get attention from me, I feel useless. But im glad.coz this is not the first time & won't be the last time u wld do that.
The 3rd day-
You say u miss me but I scolded u for wasting phn bill. I knw I am not being sincere or supportive. But thk'g abt the months when u were away I was the one keep pestering & got cold water in return.I feel like an idiot back then. I seriously thk I give u too much freedom while u need me to respond even when I'm away so far, phn call charges so high.
The 4th day-
I am home. I miss ppl in SG. I miss my colleagues. I knw they miss me too. I feel blessed! What about the kids & u? Suddenly I don't knw how to talk to u.start from where & talk about what. Too many things too short the time. I feel the stress & burden. I worried I say wrong thgs to make u angry or suspect again. While I am just trying to share with u my thought my day & what I have been thru this few days. You stressed me.
The 5th day-
Wake up early than usual working day. Can't really slp coz was thk'g about u what u said last nite. Feeling stressful again coz don't knw how to make u at ease & be gentle. I'm sometimes like a man, don't knw what is soft. Ya. Chor lor loh! Well, when I try to be a small girl, u push me say too much & I take thgs for granted.* I woke up & take care of everything u say I am not supportive. Ya. U wld say "you dont knw how to balance it!"
I am like a man, so rough. Imagine who wld love a man? U are thk'g too much.
The 6th day-
Going home! Hope argue no more. I tried my best to make myself at ease. I stood up for myself. While u need me to do somethg to make u feel better.* life is never fair. Life is ain't good. Life is never smooth to live. When u say numb, have u thought abt me? U were away for months & u said u look after me from afar. But do you knw what I have been thru back then? Where did I go & which fren/s I hang out with? What time I went home & how's my life? What about after we got back & I found those photos? I didn't say much & I heal myself. Do u knw how painful? Ya.u wld say abt my Aussie fren, heard frm my other fren they live happily in Aussie now.
So I drop this topic & live new. U say not fair if I keep singing the same song.
Argue no more. Eraser is pencil best fren, let's start new chapter.
The 7th day-
No one knows
The 8th day-
Your mom's birthday outing.
The 9th day-
Another worrying day.
• bigheadlovely•
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