Chap Goh Mei! The big bright shimmering full moon hanging in the dark blue sky.
The moon saying hello to everyone on earth greeting all of us say : Good bye to yesterday, last nite and the day before and welcome the brand new year. May good luck, good health and fortune be with you! Have a great year ahead!
I promised to change, no more taking things for granted.
I promised to be better, differentiate what is priority.
I promised to improve, to be more understanding.
I promised to respect and be flexible (this one just added)
*phew* New Year new resolution! So many to fulfill. Wish me luck!
I saw what I should not have seen.
I heard what I should not have heard.
I read what I should not have read.
I was not happy about last nite, yesterday or the day before.
I was upset over matters.
I have over sensitive character sometimes.
I think too much and too elaborate.
I suffocate something and some part of life.
I misuse certain situation.
I was over board.
No matter what, I will try try try my best to be a better person.
Let's be happy and discuss something happy and laugh together.
The first day after Chap Goh Mei, a guy told me say : Nicole, you are not sexy and not too pretty but naturally attractive. What is that??? I am confused. This is what I should not hear and should ignore.
I am so don't understand coz my partner never say that to me. *laugh out loud* He always scold me idiot, ask me to go die and lots of bad things. He never say im not pretty, not sexy not attractive but noisy. *laugh*
Chap Goh Mei itself, I saw something that I should not have seen. I told myself not to be over sensitive and be cool. My mood got distracted awhile but I was calm. Thinking I should let it go and pretend never have seen. I am confused about my mood and feeling. I ignore becoz I love this person too much or I just don't care. I ignore becoz I think we both don't want to have ugly ending or we are just waiting to end the situation gently and naturally. Weird situation.
The day before Chap Goh Mei, I got deeply hurt. Not so much about being offended but rather blamed. Well, inside my heart was bleeding. I felt that poking sharp pain. I didn't mention and claim anything. I think the person who hurt me didn't actually realize how painful it was and how much it meant to me.
Oh well, above all examples are just part of life. After Chap Goh Mei is another brand new year ahead. Tomorrow will be much better and I shall see, which they commented that Chicken will be having good luck this year. But i edi lose money from the start. Do you mean my luck can only last for 6-9 months? Wow! So Cinderella!
Good luck chicken! Go go go! make a prosperous year ahead!! kokokkoookokokokokok... *Laugh out loud*
*Chikadee*
