*Argh*... grouchy mood yesterday morning. Because i couldnt find EPF contact number. internet was !@#$ slow. then i throw tantrum on my mom. I am so so so sorry. I didnt mean to be that but i was just unahppy and disappointed with the services. I wanted to get things done and settle before i go back and I dont want to keep worrying about things here.
I guess I can never be dependent and expect people to help me to run errants. I give up. I will do myself.
Sorry about sharing and telling you about things and make you unhappy. Im really sorry. It will not happen anymore. It will only be happy things.
I feel like screaming and venting out my
Well, forgive me for talking rubbish. This page is meant to be a venting page. I give up in expecting things from people. If you want to give, you share. In order for me to keep pushing and telling what I want, what we need and what should we have to make things better, just go ahead with what you think it is right.
I am not young anymore, I dont want to our waste time. I dont think this is the right thing to do and pro-long my pain. So forget about it and let's let it go. and i am not getting back what i have expected and you are not gainning anything but headaches.
Talking to Tippie and found we have grown up alot. And he realised I have changed. *WOW* this is what close friend can spot though we only call and meet once or twice in a year. Anyway, i dont used to share things directly with my partner. We both feel thankful for each other as good friend since we cant be gf/bf. *laugh* the reason was real stupid why we cant be one.
Anyway, he spotted a few things. We also shared how to make a r/s better and our partner feel more comfortable. It feels nice to be his gf only when the girl is not a blur-sotong. Everyone has their POV towards a certain statement. One thing he commented and makes me feel so proud is -my future husband will feel very happy to have me. *Laugh* He always think there are lots of flies and bees around me.
*Laugh* I think I know what a guy want from a girl to make his life easier (*cough* Not everything la. I am not god) and I know how to be more open. Of coz he is kind enough to help the gf to gain back her confidence and be more extrovert.
This believe is not only we know but those who take things seriously in r/s will trust this magic : If you want ppl to respect you, you must first respect ppl. If you want ppl to treat you good, you must first love others. This is a powderful way.
Well, I dare not to say my future husband or partner will feel proud of me, because he said it based on what he has seen and heard. But I will try to give the best and I hope in return he will treat me good too. That's what life all about.
But when we touched abt 'family trip or family visitation' I feel sad. I am not here to put blame coz i didnt do a good job, but i hope there shall not be any revenge in heart at the first place and i seek understanding for future respect. Oh well, dont worry. Things over and I am done with all unhappy things. I promise to improve, i will respect what decision has made and I will try to make it work. The rest not up to me to plan and decide and I shall let is go.
Thanks for spending so much time with me and thank god to have you to teach me what is love and relationship. And now im good to go.
Life still goes on and happy can edi... YES!!!
Alrite.. going to pack and time to go bek to the reality and no more fooling around.
^Lovely^
