yeah!!! *heartaching*
Time flies to fast. One month edi since I moved out.
Time to do a simple - One month review:
- Time spent on the phone talking?
* Not more than 10 hours
- Time spent on SMS?
* Not more than 80 sms
- Time met together?
* Not more than 1 hour
Conclusion: What is this? Grade E - Worse than a stranger.
How can we improve our r/s like this? Teach me, enlighten me please.
If you dont tell me what you doing, and I keep pushing, then do you still think that this will work out well?
Teach me and enlighten me again please.
No way of saying: No choice, i just got to live with it. No way of saying: What can I do? He is like this already.
We are all grown up adult. No more kids. If we keep on living in this life style, we will grow old faster and get more phobia. i try my best to text you whatever I do and wherever i go, but what about u? Is that how you want your partner to treat you? Tell me & enlighten me... I am clueless and I seriously dont know what to do.
We are talking about INITIATIVE & HEART
One month we have 31 days and 31 days we have 744 hours and deducted off sleeping time 8hrs, we still have 496 hours. But what did we do with these 496 hrs? We have wasted most of it @ work and some other nonsense. If this is what/how you want from your partner to do to you, then alrite. I got it right now. I spent one month to try and give in and try to proof I am not an idiot and i think i can do better than my past. Which i was wrong. totally wrong!
I give myself support, hope, courage and time. I pamper myself and i tell myself, if i dun love myself, how could i love you. I ease my own fear, phobia and problems. I tot this way i could atleast make you feel burdenless. Then you can concentrate in your career. Being someone understanding is not easy, having constant hope in a r/s is much harder.
TRUST is in the air
I dont care what other ppl think and commented about you. Well, your action dont really proof to me anything though. I insisted to believe in you. Well, I hope you are clear of what you want now.
Extraordinary & Specialty
Yes, we had lots happy time together and we have build up lots of fun interesting hobbies together which i think you are awesome & someone so special to me. I feel sad whenever i pass by the toy shops or what we used to do together and try to give each other suprises. We celebrate odd days. If you celebrate this month anniversary, I will do random arrangement. Even thats jst a normal day, we will pamper ourselves with nice food or fun toy or happy movie.
We are weird but fun. This makes me sad. I guess there are things we can never change or overcome. Such as my stubborness and your timing problem. I always think, if you love that person, you will do whatever it takes to be there as soon as possible. You will want to be the first one to know everything. You will want to impress and stand by the person and be the only final one. I think im such hopeless person to u. anyway....
Farewell 2009
Thank you for giving me such sweet memorable time, spending all these while with me. For this anniversary, I have done up something, since during your birthday (we, with the kids, didnt even have opportunity to pass you the gift) you were busy with your colleagues celebrating in office, so I decided to give you something for 2009. You can use it, you can throw it away, you can hide it, you can do what you like with it. Will try to give you by before 31 Dec 2009, it wont take long to pass you thing. Less than 10seconds. So long 2009!
*lovely*